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Not excited for things anymore

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I'm a 13 year old boy with GAD and I've been having severe and regular panic attacks since about 2009, aged 6. I developed DP/DR symptoms around 2/3 years ago.

I've been on and off with my symptoms and they've been fairly manageable up until now, yet this year they've sky rocketed and I feel like I've been in a constant dream-like DR/DR episode for the past couple of months.

I'm not sure if what I'm about to explain is a symptom or a side effect (?) of DP/DR, but I feel constantly drained and the things that used to excite me, don't anymore.

For example, I'm going on vacation in about 2 weeks to one of my favourite places in the world, however this year I don't feel excited at all. I'm looking forward to it of course, but

I just can't feel excited for it. It's both annoying and worrying, coming from a person who used to get excited over the stupidest and littlest things.

It's like my brain can't comprehend that I'm going on holiday. I'm looking and pictures of where I'm staying, and its almost as if my brain is like, "Yeah, great but you're not actually going are you?", and I'm trying to recreate the things I did before I went on holiday last year, but it's really not working. The images in my mind when I try to picture myself there almost seem fuzzy.

If I explain it to people, I feel like they'll think I'm ungrateful or spoiled, which is truly not the case.

I was just wondering if other people have felt the same way about DP/DR, and I would like to know if there's a way to stop this constant miserable "episode" and actually

get excited for the things I used to be excited about.

Thanks :)
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I'm sorry that you got this awful feeling when you're still so young. I'm 26 and just got dp/dr about 8 months ago. I feel exactly the same way you do. No excitement toward anything whatsoever. I guess emotional numbness is a symptom of dp/dr. When I first lost emotions (mostly positive ones), I started to experience dp/dr. We have no emotions we dissociate and turn into soulless zombies. Unfortunately, I'm yet to find a cure.
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