I get feelings that I'll lose control its intense , like I feel overwhelmed and I feel I'm loosing control .
Kinda a feeling like ill go nuts and lash out at people ..
Not sure if this is what you mean
yes. im sometimes feeling that im just suffered so much that i cant handle this anymore and i gonna explode or die to my pain. i think its intense axniety. especially when im in market im feeling like everyone is juging me that its all about me and im so nervous. it feels that i put these mask on which are subconcious. and i feel that someone is controlling me that i should be certan way. like everyone else.
My brain never feels like it's in the present moment - so what tends to happen is that I gloss over daily things entirely in my mind, making it feel like I never did them, or else that they happened a long time ago, even if it was the same day. So many mundane activities just don't seem to register, making it feel like my life is on autopilot. I sometimes have a very brief moment of relative clarity, and then I'll think like "huh? how did I get here?" - almost like I was sleepwalking up until that point.
For me, this is the main reason as to why I don't feel in control. My body still functions, but my brain feels disconnected from it.
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