[heneluna]

I used to be so existential to the point where I'd be so perceptive of everything, questioning it all, practically writing novels just trying to explain things to myself. Used to write down my gross negative thoughts on the world, "reality" and consciousness whilst being in this drunken state. I can't think anymore, I've got no thoughts. I can't crack jokes anymore and small talk physically pains me. I want to socialize but I've got nothing to pull out of my empty brain. It wasn't fun questioning everything, it did make me feel a bit bonkers, and honestly might have heightened the dp, but now I feel like a watered down version of myself. It makes me so sad just thinking about it. Where did that person go? This is def. a symptom of dpdr, but the fact that I have no friends to even try communicating with is also something. Throughout high school I've felt this way, and due to this I've got no friends.. not even the stoners want me.

Just kind of wish someone would stick with me long enough to where I get used to ?cognition? again.

Hopefully, I'll find myself again through interacting with this community. I'm not completely gone yet.

 

[Findmywayhome]

Besides the blank mind, I relate to this deeply. I try to search my mind but I can't seem to find where the "me" is. I'm not absent of thoughts, but I feel like the "self" got the volume turned down. Thinking feels like trying to hear yourself speaking when your standing right beside a rocket launch.

But yes, your right, no thoughts is caused the same way DPDR is caused. Your brain is trying to protect yourself from the anxiety caused by the existential thoughts by shutting down your cognition completely, but by no means will it be shut down forever!

Hang in there. You'll be okay.

 

[Staceb]

I used to be so existential to the point where I'd be so perceptive of everything, questioning it all, practically writing novels just trying to explain things to myself. Used to write down my gross negative thoughts on the world, "reality" and consciousness whilst being in this drunken state. I can't think anymore, I've got no thoughts. I can't crack jokes anymore and small talk physically pains me. I want to socialize but I've got nothing to pull out of my empty brain. It wasn't fun questioning everything, it did make me feel a bit bonkers, and honestly might have heightened the dp, but now I feel like a watered down version of myself. It makes me so sad just thinking about it. Where did that person go? This is def. a symptom of dpdr, but the fact that I have no friends to even try communicating with is also something. Throughout high school I've felt this way, and due to this I've got no friends.. not even the stoners want me.

Just kind of wish someone would stick with me long enough to where I get used to ?cognition? again.

Hopefully, I'll find myself again through interacting with this community. I'm not completely gone yet.

I have no thoughts atoll is that what you have

 

[Synthetic Ethos]

You and I are the same person. I don't know how i can help because right now, I can't even help my damn self. But just take comfort knowing that there are people like you and that there is no problem complex and unheard this community hasn't heard a thousand times over.