[whiterabbit]

The thing that really upsets me the most about this condition is the total inability I have to engage my mind with anything - does anyone else have this, lack of thoughts - I know its not like this all the time, I have been in a different state - but it feels impossible to know how to fight this emptiness when one is empty - can anyone relate, can anyone help? Yours in despair Sarah x

 

[LOSTONE]

Sometimes I have a lack of thoughts and sometimes I have way to many thoughts. I think that the times I am most focused is when I am most physically active.

The thing that really upsets me the most about this condition is the total inability I have to engage my mind with anything

I am like this the most when I am realy depressed. When I am down and out, I just don't want to engage my mide with anything because I don't care about anything at those times.

 

[Guest]

remember you pmed me saying my description was similar to you, IM me if you ever want to talk.. xplo911.. i dont know what exactly your thinking about right now.

 

[Universal]

I have that no thought problem too. Like my head is just an empty shell and there's not thoughts coming in and out of it. Sounds pretty crazy,no? I just wanna get locked up in a mental home sometimes, where I can relate to people that are around me. So this brain silence thing is really rediculous. But how can I have no thoughts if I'm able to type this? Really weird. And my mom says the same thing she says you're talking to me so you must have some thoughts. But it really seems like I don't. Same with feelings. It feels like I have an empty brain,like my brain has been airlifted out of the area to get worked on it so that I can rest with no thoughts.

 

[Lilymoonchild]

And my mom says the same thing she says you're talking to me so you must have some thoughts. But it really seems like I don't. Same with feelings.

Do you ever feel like you're watching a conversation you're having. You're talking, and even while you're talking, it's like you don't know what words are going to come out of your mouth more than anyone else does?

I can totally relate to the empty thoughts feeling--sometimes at work, people will ask me a question, and it takes me about 3 times as long to process what they even said, then I have to think up an answer, which is worse. Then, there are several things I have to get done at the end of the night, and I dread missing something (I have identified a list of the 3 most important things, and as long as I check those, I figure anything else can be fixed tomorrow if needs be). I try so hard to focus and be in the moment, but sometimes I just find it impossible....

 

[peaceboy23]

I can totally relate to this. Sometimes I feel like I have no thoughts, and then I freak out and make sure that I'm thinking something. I'll say to myslef "My name is michael and I live at 123 street road, anytown, VA." (not really, i use my real address <grin>.) I'll think "i'm not thinking anything" which is very silly, of course, because I'm thinking THAT. I also sometimes feel if I don't force myself to think something, then I'll wither up and die, because my mind has nothing in it. Then there is the corrollary where I feel like I can't escape from my thoughts, there is no rest, I can't stop thinking about things. Then I freak out about THAT. Sigh. Fun stuff, eh?

 

[Sojourner]

Is it being kind to oneself to put a requirement on oneself such as having certain thoughts or having certain feelings?

Why do you persecute yourself?

 

[Da'Burgh]

Do you ever feel like you're watching a conversation you're having. You're talking, and even while you're talking, it's like you don't know what words are going to come out of your mouth more than anyone else does?

Oh goodness, yes.

Sometimes I'm caught up in my thoughts so much that I get weirded out by how automatic my speech is. I wonder "How can I be still talking and thinking about how my talking and speech sounds and they can hear me and..what did I just say? Did I say the right thing? What the hell? AHHH!!"

I hate obsessional thinking.

 

[Da'Burgh]

Hey you guys... when you're thinking that you have no thoughts...

Just think about that one... :lol:

 

[LOSTONE]

Lily Da I think the same way myself. In addition I also think about what I am going to say in the future, what the other person may say in the future, what other people in the room are talking about, are they talking about me. Sometimes my thoughts and speech get so mixed up that I start fearing that I am going to start speaking what I am thinking about.
Once in a wile I realy can not know for sure if I have spoken something or just thought about speaking something. This crap scares the hell out of me sometimes.

I think I only get like this when I have a lot of anxiety.

 

[LOSTONE]

I forgot.

also the only way I know if I have just spoken or not is by other peoples reactions, but sometimes I don't even know if they are realy speaking or if I am just imajining that they have spoken.

I think an over active thinking pattern and an underactive thinking pattern both suck ass.