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No personality and no soul

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With dp, did anyone feel this sudden loss of personality? Like, you didn’t know the things you used to say, you felt like you were in your body and experiencing everything for the first time, words felt strange and robotic...this dramatic shift happened to me 10 years ago and I’ve never recovered. It’s like everything’s gone, my habits, mannerisms, how I used to think. It’s like I’m a totally different person. All I have are memories of this person’s life and otherwise I’m wiped clean. My social life is really suffering because I can never think of what to say and I feel like the most boring person ever. There’s just nothing left inside me, nothing individual, nothing that I grew up learning, except things like reading and drawing. That hasn’t changed but my voice has. My voice is gone. The internal monologue that I had before vanished and it was like a new monologue began for the first time, taking its place. 2008 seems like the year I was born, not 1991, when this body was born.
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Brain researchers have stated that if you have a soul, it resides in the temporal lobe of your brain. Your personality is a function of the temporal lobe of your brain. I experienced approximately

30 epileptic discharges in about 3 minutes time. By brain was literally electrocuting itself with me inside. According to a British Neurological Journal, I became a worst case scenario when

my "post ictal psychosis segued into an affective disorder of major depression". I lost my emotions, my libido, and my personality. I had an EEG in 1971 which showed the damage to my

temporal lobe. For reasons not entirely clear to me, my mother decided to lie to me and she told me my EEG results were "normal with one lead off". I would not discover the lie for 40 years,

when I solved the riddle of my mental illness and was able to understand the trauma I experienced at age 17 was epileptic in origin. I had another EEG which also showed the pathology in

my temporal lobe, but this time the neurologist dealt directly with me. If you have any appreciation of the suffering I might have incurred in 40 years of suffering focal temporal lobe seizures

without understanding, ocular migraines without understanding, and episodes of major depression without understanding, then you will seriously consider having an EEG.
Doesn't it feel like you have learnt something extremely shocking and thought provoking about yourself when you have went decades without knowing the true origin of your illness? And to think your mother thought she was doing you a favor by LYING to you?
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