I have had severe derealization and anxiety for 3 years. Derealization for 3 years before that. I have been to the hospital many times, I have been to see at least 8 different psychiatrists, several regular therapists, a CBT therapist an EDMR therapist. I've been on 20 different medications. I've had every medical test done including an EEG. Nothing has helped. Nothing. There was a time for about 5 months a few years ago where it started to get a little better and I was able to hold a job. I have no idea what changed. Then it just got worse again. Now I can barely leave the couch in my living room. I feel sick all the time. Im on lexapro, xanax, buspar, now my psychiatrist just put me on something else i cant remember the name of. None of it is helping except for the xanax which might help for about an hour or if Im lucky just knock me out for the day. When I tell my psychiatrist that Im not getting better he cant believe it. It makes me feel like a medical anomally or like theres something deeply deeply wrong with me that no one will ever be able to fix. At this point Im just waiting to die. Is there anything I can do? Do I just have to live like this? I know this is the world's most angsty post but believe it or not before all of this I was a really happu, optimistic person. Now I rarely feel anything but this gross feeling of darkness fogginess and fear. Can anybody help me?