[subtlerobot]

after thinking i was going insane for a month or two, i came across depersonalization. i was relieved, but at the same time, distressed. that odd sort of feeling stayed with me for a few days, but then i reverted back to the thought that i'm losing my mind. a lot of what i read here describes how i feel, but how do i know for sure that i'm not losing it? the more i read about insanity, psychopathology and schizophrenia, the more paranoid i get. today i almost completely lost it, thinking that my future is doomed due to insanity, but i'm a lot calmer now. its so frustrating...

urgh, my mind is in such a hazy state. i can't think straight, and i can't make sense of a lot. i don't know what i'm getting at by writing all of this, but i guess it helps to vent.

 

[jake]

Hi, welcome to the board. I guess congratulations aren't really in order but at least you found the word that best describes the weirdness for now. You may feel worse the more you read on psychoosis and things that don't apply but I can't stop you cuz nobody could stop me. Just know you landed here not by accident and you don't ahve to be alone anymore in your worries of going nuts. I've had the "on the edge" feeling a while now and never have "gone" mad. Plus there are people here who have had this and are totally over it now so there's hope. Stick around and take good care of yourself,
--Jake

 

[Guest_]

EVERYONE with anxiety has the initial worry they are going crazy, because their chemicals are so fucked up, who wouldnt think they were on a drug or going nuts? Your fears will never be realized...well, the catastrophic ones at least.

 

[orangeaid]

All I can say is thank goodness you found out what it was, took me same about 1-2moths worth of suffering to come across this.

Anyway this is completely normal, I dont know if you have had anxiety before this but these are all NORMAL THOUGHTS. Most intense worriers will worry aobut worrying. It is all ok, I and many others have been in your shoes.

As for mind is in a haze, I can so relate and many others will as they call it "Brain is made of wool feeling" or "brain fog". Something like that. Thats also a common symptom of dp/dr.

 

[subtlerobot]

thanks for all of the replies!

dp just boggles me. i was living a semi 'normal' life, but then out of nowhere, i'm struck with this stange and scary disorder, if i even have it. i'm currently self-diagnosed, but i'm going to see a shrink in a week or two. for now, i just want some reassurance that i'm not losing it, but it feels my life is slipping away.

how could one be so sure that i have dp and not some other disorder?
your replies are greatly appreciated