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I'm 26 years old and do not know how long I've had this. Maybe all my life, I do not know. Because, how does normal feel? At least, it feels good to know that I'm not alone.
I do not know if I feel unreal, or if the world around me feels unreal. I do not know if I have depersonalisation or derealisation.
It feels like I'm living in a dream. That I could wake up at any time, but I don't. When I see myself in the mirror, I feel unreal, it's a weird feeling. Everything I see, I see, but I can not see it "sharp". It feels like I'm trapped inside me. That I want to get out, want to crack the bubble but it's too thick. It feels like everything is in the eyes, I see everything good, but my eyes are "cloudy", though they are not. At the same time, it feels "nice" sometimes to be in this bubble. Because i feel afraid to live outside it, will everything be overwhelming? It feels like the bubble filters out things / feelings. Half comes in and half stays out there.
You who read this, have any of you come out of this bubble? Please tell me, I want to read about how you felt when you got out of it.
It feels like the decisions I take when I'm in this bubble are a little different than the decisions I would take if I was free. Really hard to explain. It feels like I don't care about certain things. Everything I do goes on automatic, like a robot.
I also feel I'm sensitive to impressions (HSP). Or maybe that's just one of the symptoms of this? I can't handle too much stimulation from the outside. If it happens, I close myself and become like a dead fish. I always feel stressed and often in great need of physical proximity.
Now maybe everything got a little messy, but as I said, please tell me how it is or how it was for you.
Take care / Diana
I'm 26 years old and do not know how long I've had this. Maybe all my life, I do not know. Because, how does normal feel? At least, it feels good to know that I'm not alone.I do not know if I feel unreal, or if the world around me feels unreal. I do not know if I have depersonalisation or derealisation.
It feels like I'm living in a dream. That I could wake up at any time, but I don't. When I see myself in the mirror, I feel unreal, it's a weird feeling. Everything I see, I see, but I can not see it "sharp". It feels like I'm trapped inside me. That I want to get out, want to crack the bubble but it's too thick. It feels like everything is in the eyes, I see everything good, but my eyes are "cloudy", though they are not. At the same time, it feels "nice" sometimes to be in this bubble. Because i feel afraid to live outside it, will everything be overwhelming? It feels like the bubble filters out things / feelings. Half comes in and half stays out there.
You who read this, have any of you come out of this bubble? Please tell me, I want to read about how you felt when you got out of it.
It feels like the decisions I take when I'm in this bubble are a little different than the decisions I would take if I was free. Really hard to explain. It feels like I don't care about certain things. Everything I do goes on automatic, like a robot.
I also feel I'm sensitive to impressions (HSP). Or maybe that's just one of the symptoms of this? I can't handle too much stimulation from the outside. If it happens, I close myself and become like a dead fish. I always feel stressed and often in great need of physical proximity.
Now maybe everything got a little messy, but as I said, please tell me how it is or how it was for you.
Take care / Diana
