[yume]

Hello.

I have been experiencing something off ever since I was 14 (I am 28 now), but didn't know how to describe it without sounding like a crazy person. It wasn't until last year I overcame the term (Primary) Depersonalisation and Derealisation, which I suspect was the chronic problem I had all this time…

I do not know how to go about getting help? I am from the UK, and have told my GP, which he said he will get back to me once he gets a reply from the mental health community (which was perhaps 2 months ago)…

I have already accepted that this is what I will probably have to live with for the rest of my life, but I do not really know anyone who had had this primarily 24/7 for years. I haven't really spoken much about my problem either - to others I look and act normal.

I don't know… I am always engaging with people, experiencing different things, yet any emotional attachment to them are numb. I'm just so permanently spaced out that time becomes distorted, memories become distant, nothing seems real to me like I shouldn't even be here. Just looking for ways to improve this foggy dream-like state in my life.

If anyone from the UK can advise me - I would be appreciative.

 

[yume]

I've had this 24/7 for 27 years now, every second of every minute, constant & without let up. Had it episodically as a child too. I can relate to 100% of what you're saying. I don't know how close to London you are, but ask your GP to refer you to the DPD Research Unit at The Maudsley Kings College London to see Elaine Hunter (that is if you wanna try therapy).

If you can't get there & find a local therapist who hasn't heard of DP (most haven't), buy the book Feeling Unreal as an education for them.

Here are somethings I've found helpful over the years. http://www.dpselfhelp.com/forum/index.php?/topic/80994-how-can-you-live-with-dp/?p=536994

Welcome to the forum.

Thank you for your reply

Yes I am living in London. I have heard of The Maudsley Kings College London after researching about it however I think my GP is reluctant to refer me until further investigations. I will go back to my GP if I have not heard from him soon.

I have already bought the book and in the process of reading it myself. If I can afford it I may go to a private therapist as I hear it is a long waiting list to see one under NHS (as well as the Maudsley).

Thanks for your tips too, a lot I already do, but some I was not aware of like the dark chocolate!

May I ask if you are getting help? Or if you are taking anything for it? It would be nice to chat in PM if possible. Thanks again!