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Hi...suppose i should start off with a little background. I am a girl, 21, and have experianced numerous traumas in life. But its only recent that ive started having these bizzare symptoms.
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I feel like everything i experiance (see, hear, taste, smell, or touch) isnt accually happening. My vision espessially is affected. I camt take anything in without me going "is this really happening right now??" Even good things! Its as if im dreaming but deep down i know im not?

I feel like im in a little forcefield of mine or something like a bubble. I feel trapped in my own mind.

Im extremely aware of my own preception. But everything i take in doesnt feel concrete or real to me.

Im in tact with emotions but they arnt fully present. Its like the emotion is there and i express it but i dont really FEEL it.

My entire life feels strange. Even when i think back to my childhood, like in kindergarden; that preception i had as a child, the fact i had this normal, grounded view of myself and the world around me suddenly feels strange to me.

Ive dealt with near constant thinking on death and existence but its slowly dampened a bit. But even though its dampened, i still have the same issues along with some kind of depression cause i dont think things matter anymore, espessially since nothing feels genuine anymore.

I almost cant think of life without this now? Ive become so used to this feeling, i dont really remember how normal felt or if its even possible to return to normal. I almost feel it was inevitable i developed this and now theres no turning back.

I feel like BECAUSE ive been to such a scary, mysterious place of the mind, i cant come back from it. Its like a part of my mind just blew open and i finally see the sheer absurdity of how anything can exist at all. I feel like im dooming the whole universe by thinking this and its funny cause when it first happened, i worried this new questioning would make me suddenly stop existing or the whole universe would stop existing if i got sucked in too far or something. That probably makes no sense...

I feel like just a floating bundle of consciousness that doesnt understand why its here.

I cant really feel that my life isnt my own? Its like i cant recognize my life anymore. Lots of times, things feel foreign or alien to me. I just looked outside through the window (its night time) and its as if all of that is just a picture, a projection, or something thats not really there.

Old material things i used to care about have no meaning or value anymore. My relationships, my morals, values, my hobbies...i also look at objects in my room i have hanging or decorative things and think "why is this even important?"

My loved ones keep saying to just live like every days your last and to be happy but how can i do that when everything feels like it isnt happening?

Theres probably loads more symptoms i have but cant think of atm but please if anyones got advice or ways to fix this, id like some help. I know its DP or DR and i have a need to recover but i feel like its permanently affected how i think now.
 

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Hi Jix,

I can totally relate to all of your DP/DR problems. Even though you feel like things are permanent, it's not.

You are saying that you experienced numerous traumas in your life. Did you ever take the time to address these issues? Did you ever talk to a psychologist about these things? Did you ever REALLY gave these problems a place in your hearth with full acceptance? If not, you were bound to get intro trouble at some point in your life.

One way or another those traumas are gonna bite you in the ass. Sadly for us, we end up with DP/DR, but this is our body and mind telling us to work on these problems.

Try to be positive and be grateful that your DR came into your life at such a young age. I can't tell what your life looks like right now, but being 21 you should have some spare time to talk about your problems.

You WILL get out of this, but you gotta work for it. Eventually you WILL get out of this as a MUCH stronger person.

Think about that, focus on becomming the person you always wanted to be instead of dreading about DR (even if you can just think about this briefly for now).

Much love.
 

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Hi Jix,

I can totally relate to all of your DP/DR problems. Even though you feel like things are permanent, it's not.

You are saying that you experienced numerous traumas in your life. Did you ever take the time to address these issues? Did you ever talk to a psychologist about these things? Did you ever REALLY gave these problems a place in your hearth with full acceptance? If not, you were bound to get intro trouble at some point in your life.
One way or another those traumas are gonna bite you in the ass. Sadly for us, we end up with DP/DR, but this is our body and mind telling us to work on these problems.

Try to be positive and be grateful that your DR came into your life at such a young age. I can't tell what your life looks like right now, but being 21 you should have some spare time to talk about your problems.
You WILL get out of this, but you gotta work for it. Eventually you WILL get out of this as a MUCH stronger person.

Think about that, focus on becomming the person you always wanted to be instead of dreading about DR (even if you can just think about this briefly for now).

Much love.
Hi, thank you.
Im just scared that the meaning in my life will be gone forever. Its like my entire sense of self and my love for life has been stripped away. Everything i lived for suddenly doesnt matter or make sense because i dont see purpose anymore. Can that really come back? What are the steps to getting it back?
I dont really know what you mean by address my traumas to be completely honest...i think ive pretty much accepted them and have seen a therapist for them. The main issue now is im afraid of my own and everyone elses mortality.
I feel like this dp or dr are a trauma in and of itself. These feelings are accually probably worse than my accual traumas because im experiancing a complete loss of everything.
I didnt know it was possible to feel this unfathomable disconnection and accually be aware that its happening...i am just so scared this will follow how i think for the rest of my life.
How come ive never heard of such a phenomenon before?? its worse than depression and anxiety by far! And ive had both those disorders too. I dont get why ive never heard it talked about before since its so bizarre. Its crazy.
Also, id think about the person i want to be but im not even sure who the person is that i want to be..and it almost feels pointless now...
 
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