Talking about yourself will make it better. It is the key to your recovery. It is the only thing which will lead to recovery. That, and focusing away from the way you feel (which seems to be too hard for us obsessive types)
I know how you feel 100%, AND I would say that I'm even worse off than you are : )
I also know how it is to want someone to take you in their hands and make it all go away, BUT the only person who can take us into their arms is us. We have to hug ourselves. When we gain back that secure, logical, strong part of us that has gone into hiding, we begin the process of recovery. Right now, that part of us has gone on a very long vacation, and the only way to reclaim it is to deal with what made it happen in the first place.
I know you don't want to hear this, and I know it seems like nothing you could have gone through could be causing so much pain, but, despite this, what we have gone through in our lives has created the DP.
No one can cure you but yourself, AND it will not go away overnight. You have to take a stand against your emotions, and fight as hard as you can to stay positive and focus elsewhere. Trust me, nothing more than thoughts is causing the way you feel, even thought it seems like a big horrible monster : )
Fight, fight, and keep fighting. When you have nothing left, fight harder. Force yourself to do stuff you can't, and keep fighting. Do not give into the negative emotions. And, talk about all the stuff which gives you so much pain. Talk about yourself, and keep talking. If you do this I'm sure (and, you can double check with Janine), you will feel a ton better. But, if you don't try, you won't know.
You can do this, but, you first need to realize it is in your hands.
they should have a cure for this, this is pretty debilitating mentally emotionally as well as physically, sometimes i punch my leg really hard to see if i'm still here. i wish there was a pill that could help cure this disorder. maybe one day, more research should be done on this.
The fear of schizophrenia is absurdly common in people with anxiety disorders. I had it, big time, and no amount of reassurance from anyone is going to stop you obsessing about it. However, I'll say it for completeness sake - you won't develop schizophrenia. It's a completely different kettle of fish from what you are suffering from. But it's not suprising that people with DR/DP develop seemingly rational fears of 'going mad', considering that we are seeing and feeling differently. Once you get a grip on your anxiety and obsessional state, the fear will disappear, I promise.
It'd be good to do a poll, but I'd say about 80% of the people on this board have OCD'd about schizophrenia at some point during their illness. It'd also be good to do another poll to see how many of the people on this board have actually gone on to develop a psychotic condition. I'd say about 1%, at best.
Look at it this way. You have less chance of 'going mad' from accidently ingesting some psychoactive substance than you have of being eaten by a lion. Unless you are tied to a tree in the Serengeti and covered with offal. And even then, I'd say the chances are pretty even.
It's also worth noting the distinction between someone who is actually mad and someone who thinks they are mad.
A truly mad (schizophrenic) person would not worry about being mad, as they whole-heartedly believe that it is everyone else around them that is mad and they themselves are sane, this is a defining factor of this disease.
If you are constantly worrying about being mad and developing schizophrenia then I can tell you that this will not happen as long as you currently believe you are going to go mad, this is just another in the long list of anxiety/depressive symptoms.
If however, you suddenly start to think that everyone else is mad and that you are the only sane person, then I would worry, but by this time it would be too late anyway :wink:
The psychiatrist I wanted to see, since many months, who is specialised in DP/DR, the only one here in MTL, can see me!!! I feel happy and anxious, I don't know how to feel. My psychologist told me he was very good and to ask HIM, and I got a appointment...
I am afraid that he's not OK, and will put me on anti-psychotics... I am happy too to see him, I don't know what to think...
Also today my psy and I decided to go on Anafranil.... so I am very confused... my mood goes up and down....
That is all I had to say... I feel a mix of emotions....
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