Needing some encouragement

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Heather414

Discussion Starter · Mar 9, 2020

Hey guys. I'm feeling pretty down today. I miss myself. I miss the way I used to experience life. Life is just so meaningless right now. I hate this blank mind thing. Nothing has meaning anymore. I miss having solid memories and being interested in doing things. I just want to feel alive again and in my body/mind. Just the simple fact of living is overwhelming. It feels like I've never done it before. I'm not suicidal, I'm actually scared of death. I just feel so trapped in this body that I dont know what to do with. Any advice or encouragement would be appreciated.

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Al_pk

· #2 · Mar 9, 2020

Hi Heather, I've been having a terrible time these past 2 years with intrusive thoughts, nothing feeling familar, no emotions, difficult access to memories. Many, many symptoms

Recently i've felt more of my old brain returning. It's not perfect but it's a great start. Things will get better for you also. I never thought I'd feel any better. The brain wants to be functioning optimally and even now is working towards health. Things always get better, layers peel away until you are slowly but surely your old self. It'll come.

Al

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Al_pk

· #6 · Mar 12, 2020

To my understanding, the brain shuts down higher functions like emotion when it is in fight or flight mode. This includes negative emotions and the same happened to me.

I have all the memory things Heather so I understand. It is like I am trapped in the moment, unable to cast my mind forwards and backwards, unable to enjoy my memories or review my life. This has gotten a bit better to the point where I know what I've been doing and the significance of it, but I have no personal connection to the memories and I don't enioy them. Like what I did yesterday was another person.

I found the same thing happened to me in therepy Heather. You probably know that I'm not the number 1 fanboy of therepy.

My recovery strategy is based on getting mental rest. I do enough with my day to try and convince my brain it is not in danger and then I get rest. This includes a lot of sleep. I take medications that helped my insomnia.

It's all you can really do. Mental rest, and you've got to give it a lot of time. For me, i was just damn awful so it comes as no surprise that i'm still suffering after 2 years. But I am so much better now. You will be too.

Al

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Al_pk

· #10 · Mar 22, 2020

Hi Heather. The feelings and sensations of DP are ONLY possible whilst you have DP. They cannot be recreated by a healthy mind. So all you need to do is work on allowing your brain recovery, and it will happen.

I do not know how long your recovery will take, I'm not a mystic. But I have been where you are and now I am out. It will happen for you too, it simply won't be like this forever.

Al

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