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Hello, My story is mad just like most people I started of with mild DP for 6 months just thought it was my ocd then had a breakdown 3 years ago and it changed into chronic DR constantly felt spaced out, severe brain fog, no interest in anything apart from my own world, constantly worrying about my symptoms and trying to accept and find a way out, it caused me to have traumatic memories of how bad it had got, ironicly the disorder that supposed to save you from trauma caused me trauma LOL of course most of this was caused by the constant stress of the physical symptoms that the DR brought with it.

Anyway on the bright side it got much better and this year the DP came back after 2 years of DR, sounds bad but it wasn't, the DP for me has always been mild and lifted the DR, cleared my mind and that's how it is to this day, I have had very intense DP at times through setbacks and experienced everything people talk of mainly on This forum etc but its never been as damaging to
Me as the DR, the only time I really suffer is when my DR is here or when it's really bad or I'm having a small setback like now which is why I'm writing this post ????

I just wanted some advice from people who mainly have DR as I don't get too many of the DP symptoms people go on about anymore. I get so worried it's something more like a neurological issue.

Here is how my symptoms work and maybe someone can compare and let me know if this is DR

When I'm bad I wake up in the morning and I'm very quickly struck with some type of physical sensation that can be either painful, uncomfortable or just very frightening, they do change in intensity frequently and come and go and can be extreme one day and mild the next or completely gone, this is accompanied by a feeling of dissociation from the world, I quickly have no interest in the outside world only fear for my symptoms and what they mean and where they're coming from and if they are something more than anxiety etc etc. The only reason I get confused is I'm worried it's something more than anxiety as the dp I have has no physical sensations and the symptoms I get from it are very tolerable and it makes me wonder how the DR which is supposedly the same disorder can be so much worse, but I'm sure it's probably the complete opposite for other people who's DP is there main issue.

Anyway on a brighter note, don't sit on this site wallowing in self pity to much this disorder does get much better and goes as I've experienced it, it was only the last two weeks I really started to get my emotions back and have real clarity and peace from it, it is a frustrating disorder I understand that and I really do sympathise for anyone suffering from this horrid shit I also understand that when it comes back it feels like it's never changed or never left but it has! my advice is to journal your days and you soon start to see the improvement on paper. Also for anyone lost on how to recover or just get better, Acceptance!! Acceptance of the disorder no matter how bad the symptoms get and no matter how frustrating they are being is the way out and you will see improvement but it can take a few months before you see any change in really bad cases like mine was 3 years ago it tooo 1.5 years to see change but that was then and this is now and it gets better much quicker for me now.

Also the book I've read my whole anxiety experience the past 5 years from starting out with ocd and getting dp etc. Has been a book called at last a life by Paul David. There's loads of info on how to overcome anxiety and DP the chapters that cover DR and DP are chapter 7 and 14. Chapter 7 really describes my experience with DR where I'm sure chapter 14 will describe many others experience with DP.

Also if anyone wants a bit more details on my symptoms or experience I'd love to compare and see where I lie.

Anyway there is a way out of this I've experienced it so keep your heads up and try not to spend to much time on here! ✌
 

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hmmmm, just my two cents, but what you explain is kinda DP? I picked out the key words: Physical sensation, frightening, dissociation, fear - that's all anxiety stuff, DP stuff if you ask my definition, what do you class DR as?

when i get a DR attack the world literally looks different and fake.
 

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Yeah I get that, the world looks surreal to me and hazy and grey and has no depth or life too it, that doesn’t bother me to much it’s the physical sensations that bother me, like prickly sensations, stabbing or burning feelings stuff like that, the dp for me is just wierd not to bothersome
 
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