[daggerem]

Hello im gonna start off by saying thanks for who ever is reading this because i feel like no ones cares. Ok but im 18 years old just graduated (through ged) and ive been dealing with this for 4 years + and i feel like i relapsed like 6 months ago i was able to go out of my house and go to the skate park and drive and have little worry. at this time i was on citophalm(celexa)(under10mg) and i was feeling some what ok and i had a job at a restaurant as a busboy. But ever since December i feel like i was declining as not going out as much then i got a girl friend she was super cool and understood some of my anxiety nothing crazy though just panic attacks. But we talked for so long then dated for a month and than one day she broke up with me ive never felt heat break but damn it was bad i became super depressed up until now (the break up happened around april 1st) but what im trying to say is i dont know what to do i cant leave my house i feel like the worlds fake and im conviced something is wrong with me like cancer or something and i just cant handle this im getting yelled at for not doing anything as my mom even though i told her this but this is the HARDEST thing ive been through all my symtoms are back and it feels like day one of dp and dr idk how to start to get better im in a loop please help im terrible at telling stories so this was probably written really bad but the main point is idk what to do with my life or how to live i stress ever time i have a task of driving to store or going to appointment.

thanks <3

 

[TalonW]

I’ve had it since I was a child after some traumatic events, every time something awful happens to me it feels like I’m going deeper into the dream state, it gets better and then something lame happens and then it gets worse again. I’m being constantly told to get over it and man up, it’s extremely frustrating that no one can see what we are going through, but I think sadly the only way to get though it is to just experience the pain and find people who understand like in this group. I’m very sorry about your girlfriend, break ups destroy me. I hope things get better for you and know you’re not alone and you have every right to feel the way you do.