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Hello im gonna start off by saying thanks for who ever is reading this because i feel like no ones cares. Ok but im 18 years old just graduated (through ged) and ive been dealing with this for 4 years + and i feel like i relapsed like 6 months ago i was able to go out of my house and go to the skate park and drive and have little worry. at this time i was on citophalm(celexa)(under10mg) and i was feeling some what ok and i had a job at a restaurant as a busboy. But ever since December i feel like i was declining as not going out as much then i got a girl friend she was super cool and understood some of my anxiety nothing crazy though just panic attacks. But we talked for so long then dated for a month and than one day she broke up with me ive never felt heat break but damn it was bad i became super depressed up until now (the break up happened around april 1st) but what im trying to say is i dont know what to do i cant leave my house i feel like the worlds fake and im conviced something is wrong with me like cancer or something and i just cant handle this im getting yelled at for not doing anything as my mom even though i told her this but this is the HARDEST thing ive been through all my symtoms are back and it feels like day one of dp and dr idk how to start to get better im in a loop please help im terrible at telling stories so this was probably written really bad but the main point is idk what to do with my life or how to live i stress ever time i have a task of driving to store or going to appointment.