Yeah, I have suffered and still suffered like that too. It feels like you aren’t going anywhere and it builds up more and more anxiety. Well, I can’t actually help you and neither can anyone else. If you try to examine what’s happening to you very closely, what do you see? If you see that you’d be better off without all the thoughts and obsession, then there is no way out through thought. Thinking about all of this just won’t help anymore. Try to enjoy the view and just the feeling of being alive. I edited this post because I had told you to try make your mind less noisey. But that is the wrong approach to it altogether. There’s nothing to gain or lose, that’s the point