yea i know right. when i was normal i didn't think about this shit i thought about shit normal people did. but yea a lot of the times i don't feel like my thoughts are mine. i changed my name to freddie cuz my real name is marco and he's not here. i wonder how the hell i am typing this right now cuz it feels like someone else is doing it. i try not to think about it, but its hard when it feels like someone else is in control of everything you do, say, think. it sucks. there's like no way i can stop it. a lot of times i'd rather be alone then with people, cuz if i'm with people i'll keep questioning things. like how come i am not like them or i'll question things they say and be like i used to talk about things like that.
also when my bro's gf is over i always get like kinda upset cuz i can't have a gf there all on each other enjoying each other and the feeling of life and love, and live and love is nowhere close to me and a lot of the times i feel like i will never come back to reality. its so horrible.
also when my bro's gf is over i always get like kinda upset cuz i can't have a gf there all on each other enjoying each other and the feeling of life and love, and live and love is nowhere close to me and a lot of the times i feel like i will never come back to reality. its so horrible.
