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Ok so, briefly nearly 5 month ago I got alcohol poisoning/too much alcohol during a party. Woke up the next day sick and vomiting multiple time, and then go back to sleep. Wake up the next morning with sort of like Depersonalization/Derealization or strange perception. Thought it was just the alcool effects still remaining, but it subsided for days after. Long story short I figured out it was anhedonia (complete absence of pleasure sensation from everything I used to like). Problem is, the anhedonia is still here 4and a half month later despite seeing multiple psychologist and psychiatrist, MRI scan and scanner showed nothing, and anti anxiety medication like benzo, hydroxyzine, even melatonin’s or zopiclone for sleep (cause my sleep has been completely wrecked since the event) do Nothings for me. I never had problem for sleep before. I tried supplementing vitamins but nothing change here too.
Do some of you got this too, and if yes how did you recover ?

Also i tried Alcohol again 4 month ago and can’t feel high at all or euphoria. and I wasn’t a chronic drinker at all.
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The context: Ok so, briefly nearly 5 month ago I got alcohol poisoning/too much alcohol during a party. Woke up the next day sick and vomiting multiple time, and then go back to sleep. Wake up the next morning with sort of like Depersonalization/Derealization or strange perception. Thought it was just the alcool effects still remaining, but it subsided for days after. Long story short I figured out it was anhedonia (complete absence of pleasure sensation from everything I used to like). Problem is, the anhedonia is still here 4and a half month later despite seeing multiple psychologist and psychiatrist, MRI scan and scanner showed nothing, and anti anxiety medication like benzo, hydroxyzine, even melatonin’s or zopiclone for sleep (cause my sleep has been completely wrecked since the event) do Nothings for me. I never had problem for sleep before. I tried supplementing vitamins but nothing change here too. Do some of you got this too, and if yes how did you recover ? Also i tried Alcohol again 4 month ago and can’t feel high at all or euphoria. and I wasn’t a chronic drinker at all.
That’s crazy af how are you now? Because I been feeling the same way after drinking wayy to much on Christmas last week it’s almost 2 weeks since I been feeling not like myself
Hey.it’s been nearly 10 month since the event, I’m still experiencing complete anhedonia 24/7 even during sleep or dreams, Its basically hell everyday. I’m sorry as This is maybe not what you want to hear but, I seem to be a rare case, you should be fine. wish you the best
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Hey.it’s been nearly 10 month since the event, I’m still experiencing complete anhedonia 24/7 even during sleep or dreams, Its basically hell everyday. I’m sorry as This is maybe not what you want to hear but, I seem to be a rare case, you should be fine. wish you the best
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It's important to seek help from a mental health professional if you are experiencing such intense symptoms. They will be able to provide you with a proper diagnosis and recommend appropriate treatment options. Additionally, please know that every person's experience with mental health is unique, and it's not uncommon for recovery to take time. Keep hope, and be kind to yourself during this difficult time.
It's important to seek help from a mental health professional if you are experiencing such intense symptoms. They will be able to provide you with a proper diagnosis and recommend appropriate treatment options. Additionally, please know that every person's experience with mental health is unique, and it's not uncommon for recovery to take time. Keep hope, and be kind to yourself during this difficult time.
Thank you for trying to reassure me. I’ve already saw bunch of different doctors and specialist, all of them don’t know what is happening to me, they never saw a case like me, to make it short the medical system seem to not be able to help me, and keep blaming The problem as a mental or psychics problem when trust me it’s not and I’m 100% sure of that.
i mentionned in the original post that I tried multiple drugs and meds and none of them did a slight thing to help, so I end up stuck in this state for that long And don’t know if life is worth living anymore.
It’s fucked because, i never had suicidal tought before in my entire life, life was amazing and I was so happy in where I was, but since this shit happened overnight and don’t go away no matter the effort I make, i don’t want to die of course but now I’m thinking that this is the only solution to end the hell At this point.
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Hey.it’s been nearly 10 month since the event, I’m still experiencing complete anhedonia 24/7 even during sleep or dreams, Its basically hell everyday. I’m sorry as This is maybe not what you want to hear but, I seem to be a rare case, you should be fine. wish you the best
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Woww that’s crazy I think it shouldn’t even be like that for that long you should’ve been had some improvement as the months went by.
Woww that’s crazy I think it shouldn’t even be like that for that long you should’ve been had some improvement as the months went by.
yes but unfortunately there was none. Tbh I kinda know now that this is likely permanent and that I did some form of damage this night to my brain. So yeah idk what to do, I’m at the end of the rope and already saw too much specialist neuro etc… who basically can’t help me. Everyday is like facing death in the eyes, not having the courage to do it because it’s super scary, but at the same time you wonder why staying because nothing work and your stuck in this nightmarishly state.

did you’re issue resolved ?
yes but unfortunately there was none. Tbh I kinda know now that this is likely permanent and that I did some form of damage this night to my brain. So yeah idk what to do, I’m at the end of the rope and already saw too much specialist neuro etc… who basically can’t help me. Everyday is like facing death in the eyes, not having the courage to do it because it’s super scary, but at the same time you wonder why staying because nothing work and your stuck in this nightmarishly state. did you’re issue resolved ?
No tbh I still feel the same way it’s been 4 weeks been researching up on depersonalization for 4 weeks nonstop just looking at people stories.
No tbh I still feel the same way it’s been 4 weeks been researching up on depersonalization for 4 weeks nonstop just looking at people stories.
yes but unfortunately there was none. Tbh I kinda know now that this is likely permanent and that I did some form of damage this night to my brain. So yeah idk what to do, I’m at the end of the rope and already saw too much specialist neuro etc… who basically can’t help me. Everyday is like facing death in the eyes, not having the courage to do it because it’s super scary, but at the same time you wonder why staying because nothing work and your stuck in this nightmarishly state.

did you’re issue resolved ?
& what is the all symptoms you’re going through is it just that one symptom or multiple?? Because I just feel this emotional numbness that’s it
& what is the all symptoms you’re going through is it just that one symptom or multiple?? Because I just feel this emotional numbness that’s it
Yes only anhedonia. I also developed sleep issue but that is because of the anhedonia itself, I can’t feel pleasure in dreams too anymore so I end having trouble staying asleep. And since I basically can’t feel the endorphins dopamine or shit like this anymore , I can’t relax or feel comfortable in bed or while having a warm blanket or hot drink etc… I struggle to also fall asleep.
But yes basically I just have anhedonia (I don’t like to call it emotional numbness because i still can cry or be sad, it’s just the pleasure that is totally absent).
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Yes only anhedonia. I also developed sleep issue but that is because of the anhedonia itself, I can’t feel pleasure in dreams too anymore so I end having trouble staying asleep. And since I basically can’t feel the endorphins dopamine or shit like this anymore , I can’t relax or feel comfortable in bed or while having a warm blanket or hot drink etc… I struggle to also fall asleep.
But yes basically I just have anhedonia (I don’t like to call it emotional numbness because i still can cry or be sad, it’s just the pleasure that is totally absent).
Hopefully u get better with time mann frfr just keep god first🙏
Hopefully u get better with time mann frfr just keep god first🙏
Thx man. Please if you ever get better dont forget me, I would be so grateful if you could notice Me about it If you eventually recover.
wish you the best
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Thx man. Please if you ever get better dont forget me, I would be so grateful if you could notice Me about it If you eventually recover.
wish you the best
No problem bro I gotchu, & do u have like a number or any social media I’ll keep u updated bro cause I know in my heart bro god🙏🏾 got me & I will eventually get better with time, & you will too💯
Anhedonia, or the inability to experience pleasure, can be a symptom of various mental health conditions, including depression, anxiety, and schizophrenia. It can significantly impact your daily life, including sleep and motivation. It's important to remember that recovery from anhedonia is a journey and that treatment can take time to work. However, with the right support and resources, it is possible to improve and regain the ability to experience pleasure in life.
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