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·Hello anyone!
This is all very new to me. I came across this web site by accident and it's been on my mind all day. I never knew this Community existed and reading through the symptoms I can finally make some sense of myself.
As far as I can remember I have always had a fight with 'what reality is' and trying to hold on to it. I suppose, as with many others, it started as a young child, an unhappy child and not miserable as I was often referred to. Without the help or understanding of Adults around you the whole thing just seems to manifest so that my teenage years were unbearable. I inevitably discovered alcohol as a way to nullify my mind which turned me into an alcoholic by the age of 19. But the worst was still to come as I went through a faze of messing around with LSD, that really blew my mind to bits, not advisable to anyone least of all to someone who already has a distorted take on reality. I still suffer from flashbacks to this day, I learn to live with it but can't help wondering that if this is how the rest of my life is going to feel, I may as well give in now. Iv'e been to counsellours and psychiatrists but they dont seem to grasp the severity of just how hard it is or maybe I am not explaining myself to well. I recently underwent an alcohol detox in hospital and have been sober for six months but without that crutch I'm more exposed to my illness than is bearable.
It would be helpful if others could tell me if they identify with such feelings
as: tightening of the skin around the head and neck and a need to constantly touch or hold the head or face as if to feel more secure.
recurring thought that all my thoughts will suddenly drain away and the mind will go blank forever.
when attempting to sleep I feel that the room is growing larger and I am shrinking or vice versa
people or places that I have known for years can suddenly seem like strangers or that I've never been before
a great sense of dread and fear that something evil and horrific is about to happen
objects that move seem to leave a trail or imprint negative images in their wake
burning sensations behind the eye
I could go on forever but if this makes sense with anyone then I would appreciate some response.
Good luck and take care everyone.
Apologies for the spelling and grammar as I am having an off day.
This is all very new to me. I came across this web site by accident and it's been on my mind all day. I never knew this Community existed and reading through the symptoms I can finally make some sense of myself.
As far as I can remember I have always had a fight with 'what reality is' and trying to hold on to it. I suppose, as with many others, it started as a young child, an unhappy child and not miserable as I was often referred to. Without the help or understanding of Adults around you the whole thing just seems to manifest so that my teenage years were unbearable. I inevitably discovered alcohol as a way to nullify my mind which turned me into an alcoholic by the age of 19. But the worst was still to come as I went through a faze of messing around with LSD, that really blew my mind to bits, not advisable to anyone least of all to someone who already has a distorted take on reality. I still suffer from flashbacks to this day, I learn to live with it but can't help wondering that if this is how the rest of my life is going to feel, I may as well give in now. Iv'e been to counsellours and psychiatrists but they dont seem to grasp the severity of just how hard it is or maybe I am not explaining myself to well. I recently underwent an alcohol detox in hospital and have been sober for six months but without that crutch I'm more exposed to my illness than is bearable.
It would be helpful if others could tell me if they identify with such feelings
as: tightening of the skin around the head and neck and a need to constantly touch or hold the head or face as if to feel more secure.
recurring thought that all my thoughts will suddenly drain away and the mind will go blank forever.
when attempting to sleep I feel that the room is growing larger and I am shrinking or vice versa
people or places that I have known for years can suddenly seem like strangers or that I've never been before
a great sense of dread and fear that something evil and horrific is about to happen
objects that move seem to leave a trail or imprint negative images in their wake
burning sensations behind the eye
I could go on forever but if this makes sense with anyone then I would appreciate some response.
Good luck and take care everyone.
Apologies for the spelling and grammar as I am having an off day.
