My shell - Depersonalization Poem

I have written a poem which I think describes what I am feeling these days as best as I can. Please let me know what you think.

My shell

As eyes stare at the rain, they lie

A shell they detect, yet is despised

Laughter the eyes hear but nothing is felt

Orbiting the shoulders the Universe collapses

Breathing in death nothing relaxed

Normality instantly stolen and eyes are left alone

The shell stares and feels no more

Memory is a dream

Shell has something inside, it is there

Where?

Existing is chore

Something is looking at the shell.

Something?

Eyes on the shell

Inside the shell but what?

Look at the shell

Feel no pain, never any pain

Just anguish, fear and death

Death is life

Life is death

My numb shell

Ben