I have written a poem which I think describes what I am feeling these days as best as I can. Please let me know what you think.
As eyes stare at the rain, they lie
A shell they detect, yet is despised
Laughter the eyes hear but nothing is felt
Orbiting the shoulders the Universe collapses
Breathing in death nothing relaxed
Normality instantly stolen and eyes are left alone
The shell stares and feels no more
Memory is a dream
Shell has something inside, it is there
Existing is chore
Something is looking at the shell.
Eyes on the shell
Inside the shell but what?
Look at the shell
Feel no pain, never any pain
Just anguish, fear and death
Death is life
Life is death
My numb shell