[jc]

its true,i cant face life anymore without drink,the thought of panic,the feeling of anxiety,the feeling if unreality...

today i cant even see the outside world (does that make sense ?) its all strange and dissconected.....

my inner turmoil is just too much to cope with,i wish it wasnt this way but its the only thing i know

 

[dreamcatcher]

if you think that you are an alcoholic only YOU can do something about it... if you wake up and reach straight for the bottle or drink in secret then maybe you are right.....but if your only having a few units a day to help you through then i wouldnt say you have a problem....i like to drink i only have a couple on a night but i know i am not an alcoholic....i drink to try relax.....hardly never get drunk....and could stop anytime....if i wanted too.

 

[bat]

aa's always an option
if you go to a meeting you're under no obligation and you don't have to talk about yourself, just drink tea and listen to other peoples stories if you want. members i've known have been good honest people

 

[Guest]

On my medication the other night, the massive amounts of alcohol and the drug in my system gave me intense psychotic symptoms and the only thing I could do was drink more alcohol.

I get put into uncomfortable situations and my 'escape' from this is through drinking which makes it no better, and often times it makes it much worse. Its just a stupid habit like smoking.

 

[Guest]

I think if you want to make one change work you have to change alot of things as well.

 

[jc]

isnt it stahnge though,my parents go away and im fine,they come back and my mums analysis kicks in...

ive actuaally nearly broken my big toe,so what does the old bag go on about ...yep youve guessed it!

'youre walking funny are you pissed'
'no mum my fuckin foots broken'

and on and on and on.......

she doesnt realise that she is infact (in laymens terms) she is winding me up

 

[Guest]

then simply explain to her that you really piss me off and express all your emotion about what you feel and think about her because she wont change if she doesnt think anythings wrong.

 

[jc]

she just watches me like a hawk....if i stumble then 'oh i must be pissed' if i drop my front door keys then 'i must be pissed'

i dont grab straight for the bottle so an alcoholic is a bit extreme but i like to escape now and again....all over christmas i didnt touch a drop then we had a party new years day,and for once in years i actually laughed and felt it

 

[Guest]

so she's pickin up anger from you when you are around her and she uses the dropping of the keys and walking wierd as a way to tell you that she thinks your pissed because she doesnt know any other way to say it. Ive noticed when im angry now there is almost no way of getting out of it, My mind is just fluttered with demons who make me feel uncomfortable and paranoid everywhere i go turning my whole mind into one big negative. Then when i snap out of it i regret getting so angry but it comes from things that my parents do that really piss me off like the way they drive, the tone of voice they talk in, little details about their character set off my anger. It's something that just adds to this hole im in. i just feel like gettin up packin my bags and risking my whole life for success.