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·You know, up until a few days ago, I was convinced that I was just a pair of eyes in someone elses' head. I can't remember the last time I actually looked in the mirror and realized that was me standing there and not some stranger. I also can't remember the last time I felt like me. Sometimes I think that I do it subconciously. Like, I make myself feel like a third person in my own body so that I don't have to really hear what people are telling me.
It's so odd because, up until a few days ago, I hadn't really given it a second thought. Because I've been diagnosed with bipolar II disorder, I just thought it was something to do with that. It sorta hit me last night when I was driving that I think I know what makes me kind of withdraw into myself. It seems like everytime I get into an accident, my fault or not, I kind of retreat into myself. (if that makes any sense whatsoever). So far, this time it's been 3 months, and I still feel really spacey. Even my bird can't help me. I hate feeling trapped.
It's so odd because, up until a few days ago, I hadn't really given it a second thought. Because I've been diagnosed with bipolar II disorder, I just thought it was something to do with that. It sorta hit me last night when I was driving that I think I know what makes me kind of withdraw into myself. It seems like everytime I get into an accident, my fault or not, I kind of retreat into myself. (if that makes any sense whatsoever). So far, this time it's been 3 months, and I still feel really spacey. Even my bird can't help me. I hate feeling trapped.
