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I had a major fight with my boyfriend, who begin because he saw that I' ve bought some fake glasses......to help my dr. he treated me like a crazy girl and i felt so dp I locked myself in a room downstair and stayed there a while and cried...i couln't hear him being angry at me.

We talked and talked and I cried and cried. I think we are at the end, of our relation, because he thinks i dont do anything to get better. but I feel suicidal and want to end this all. he don't get it. we just want me to stay on a ad and heal. He was angry because i have changes so much and now i decided to go on anafranil and he thinks it,s not ok because I won't tought because I am afraid of s/e. it's true. but I tried all, and I can't tolerate nothing, I am afraid of all, mean, I yell, I hate life. And I NEED something to help me, but it's true I tried all safe meds except effexor for real, and prozac.

I told him about hospitalisation, he don't care, he just care for now of my baby. He told me 1 minute he care about me and the other, he's ok for separation and yell at me that i will be ill for the rest of my life.

I feel in a dead-end. My mind is going crazy. I feel not stable, and I can't trust my doc amymore....he prescribe anything!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I told him about bromazepam, bang!!!!!!!! he gave me a paper! what the hell??? wh wants me to stop klono on a few days! Pharmacists say no, it takes time. It's like he don't care about me.

I can't trust my parents, who I can turn to? what to do to feel more calm? does zyprexa 1.2 mg can help??? I am afraid of hard meds like zyprexa, depakote, but with little ssri I go worse. and w/o nothing it'S crazy.

Plase help me. I can't even go on the board, it's an obsession and he will cut he Internet!!!!!!!!

Help

K
 
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I will pray for you. I know things are hard, but you need to grasp onto God who loves you forever. I know you feel like you will never get better, but the truth is that you will. I am getting better and so will you. Hang in there and things will calm down. :)

-Robbie
 
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Thanks robbie,

Sorry really for my post, I need great deal of help, it's not a joke, I live some very harsh moments and I am sorry to complain, but I feel betrayed and alone, and I feel like I am going nuts really. :?

Allure :cry:
 
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Don't apologize for your post's. Vent all you want because chances are that people in the real world will not understand. Some of the closest friends through my own crisis were through the internet. Anyhow allure, I am sorry to hear you are feeling so poorly. Life may seem over for you, but that's only an illusion. I will say a prayer for you tonight. I know I have been a bit of a basket case in my other post's regarding your problem's, but that's only cause I was so plagued with problems myself. So i'll say a prayer for you tonight and hopefully tomorrow will be slightly better and the next day slightly better and so on. Take care of yourself. You WILL make it through this!
 
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I so much wish I had a magic wand to make it all better for you kid.
If I was with you in person I would hold you, and cry with you.

This can be worse than hell sometimes. But, you WILL make it.
I don't know what else to say.

Vous etes une personne forte, Karine. Si je peux faire ceci - ainsi pouvez vous.
Veuillez trouver quelque chose de different pour penser environ.
Aidez-moi a apprendre le francais. Cela pourrait obetnir votre esprit outre des choses.
 
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i dunno what to say, you are in a tough position but grab a hold of yourself and try to look at it from a different point of view because this is your only escape. If you dont feel comfortable with your current psychiatrist, find a new one and try your best, be strong and you can get through it.
 
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The power of God is amazing....really it is....I have recieved great confidence from God and also he has taken fear away from me when i really needed it...
 

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Hi Karine!

I'm so sorry you're suffering so badly. I don't really know what I can say to help you, but I'll try...

If you think about being at the lowest point in your life right now, but that you will slowly start to get better from tomorow onwards. Try to cope with life minute by minute, day by day, week by week. Keep thinking that you are moving a tiny bit further forward in your life and away from your very lowest point. You must try to believe your life will only go uphill from now on. Keep telling yourself that you WILL make a full recovery one day. You WILL enjoy life again, one day. But for now, just concentrate on small steps.

I will keep you in my thoughts today. Take care.

Love,

Lesley Ann
 

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If I, like so many here, believed in God, I'd be offering a prayer for you. If I was wth you right now I'd give you a great big hug - and I don't give hugs easily lol.

As it stands, all we can offer is help and advice.

You're probably going through one of the hardest times in your life right now, and it's going to be hard to see any light at the end of the tunnel. But, whatever happens, you must keep trying. Fight with all the strength you have. There is no easy way out of this. But keep fighting every inch of the way, no matter how hard it seems.

The situation with your boyfriend seems hard, and I don't know what the best way out of it is. All I can think of is for you to sit down and have a serious chat with him. Explain to him how you are trying, and that you understand it's going to be hard for him to understand, and perhaps he'll understand a little better.

I can't imagine how hard it must be for you right now. I can barely cope with these symptoms as they are. To deal with DP/DR, depression and so on at the same time as having to raise a child is very hard indeed, and I really admire you for that, even if, at times, you find it hard to cope.

Keep going, follow the advice you hear from Janine, sc and other on here, and you will get better eventually. It's not going to be easy, not at all, but there is still hope.

Here's to you feeling better soon.

MonkeyD
 
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I'm sorry you're in so much pain. And you KNOW the way out is to keep talking. Call the new therapist if you need to, make an emergency appt.

This entire experience is horrible for you, I know..but there is no quick solution. It will take some growing up, and it's awful that you need to do that growing up now - with symptoms - but the reality is that you DO.

We're pulling for you and I truly care about you - but the hysterical leaps into hopelessness are NOT helpful to you. Try to steady yourself and try to prioritize. It's hard. And you're strong - and you have the inner resources to do this. I know you do.

Love,
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Thanks all, you are great, I love you all. :)

If you'd see me in this morning... argh... I slept less than 5 hours, in another room. :? We talked my boyfriend and I, and I think he don't want to leave me but just want me to help myself.

He asked to me to do a kind of plan, like.... about meds, psychiatrist, etc.
Like I asked to this new psy to see me, but if he doesn't call, call next week, and then, if he can't see me, call at the hospital to ask for another one... (because he is very old and very stupid) about meds, fix myself on one and forget the others.... on work, try to at least volonteer at a place.... with fixed dates.

It will be hard, just about meds, I am very confused, and I want him to help me to choose rationaly. Because I do choose on the impulsion, and I regret always my choice.

I will also see my psychologist about dp/dr, but sincerely, I don't want to. But I will.

Yesterday I had to fill a paper for disability about my student loan (I have insurance on that and I am in the indebtedness). I have see my diagnosis and saw it was1. Major depression 2.Severe GAD 3.Elements of DP.
I just wonder why meds for GAD could not help me. :?:

Thanks all, I need you all, you're good e-friends to me.
 
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