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Some background on my DPDR related Symptoms below (MENTAL)
There is no magic pill, or magic techniques almost everyone who recovered did so by "ACCEPTING/Not Caring" this is different from distraction but rather it is shifting your attention. observe the unreality and go about your day, you will not be able to do this in a week or a month, but it will be possible. (which is easier said than done.)
having said that the below is what made the above easier:
- unable to comprehend objects
- unable to comprehend reality/existence/people
- terrified of existence
- feeling reality too much ---feels like I am 1 step away from psychosis
- more derealization than depersonalization but it switched between em
- intense, pareidolia seeing faces EVERYWHERE < think this is OCD though
- audio pareidolia, would hear birds chirp in the fan/white noise, some times whispers triggering schizo OCD (the audio Pareidolia didnt happen untill I started researching schizo)
- intense illusions -I was see like a person in My, peripheral vision but then it will end up being a tree. <<I think schizo OCD too
- feeling an overlap of my imagination and reality, like a tree will be in my peripheral vision and my brain will be like "ITS A PERSON" and it wont go away until I look(i think its the same thing as above) -> schizo OCD too
- perceiving things like clothes, pants, chairs, as being alive <I've seen a few folks with this on dpselfhelp, really hard to explain. my schizo OCD made this worse
- nights (IT WAS ALWAYS WORSE AT NIGHT) where I legit felt as if my soul was being sucked out, I can't even explain this feeling but all I could do was go in my bed and sleep.
- agoraphobia, holy shit going into supermarkets sometimes was SO BAD I felt so connected to reality and people there, once again can't explain this but it was so bad.
- at night before sleeping sounds will scare me for some reason.
- brain fog
- scared of thoughts/thought process, family+friends I don't recognize when thinking about them
- Afraid of man made structures - looks so dreamy hard to explain
- intense imagery before bed, thoughts also become LOUD
- feels like I am high
- Jais-ma-vu - everything is unfamiliar
- intense de-ja-vu - comes and goes, feels like im in an alternate universe sometimes.
- thoughts/feelings I cannot explain.
- weird imagery < cannot explain
- scared of reflection sometimes (only when I over thought it)
- much more......
- Dizziness when going into stores
- initial dizziness all day (I think this was a sinus infection or covid tho)
- lump in throught
- Heart Palpitations (HEART BEATING STRONG AND LOUD)
- Fibro Symptoms, hands feel like they are burning, pins and needles, tired, some days I couldn't even leave my house.
- deconditioned/POTS heart would jump to 110 when standing.
- Head Tension
- Trembling/ muscle jerking
- GERD/acid reflux
- much more but I'm getting tired from typing lol...
There is no magic pill, or magic techniques almost everyone who recovered did so by "ACCEPTING/Not Caring" this is different from distraction but rather it is shifting your attention. observe the unreality and go about your day, you will not be able to do this in a week or a month, but it will be possible. (which is easier said than done.)
having said that the below is what made the above easier:
- block dpselfhelp.com (this forum) r/DPDR, r/Derealization, r/visualsnow, r/HPPD, r/Depersonalization, on (reddit) DPDR is Highly linked to OCD and seeking reassurance from the subreddits make you feel better in the short term but worse long term. your thoughts become your reality, so the more you research and think about it, the more it will become your reality. also there are some very NEGATIVE people.
- stop all the "Does anyone else feel" threads, and reading them. the fact that 80% of the posts are "DAE??" proves this is an anxiety/OCD symptom
- running every other day. I started a couch to 5k program (I highly recommend doing this, and running OUTSIDE rather than in a gym. 24-30 minutes typically )
- lifting weights every other day you are not running (20-30 minutes)
- going outside especially if there is sunlight, try to minimize sunscreen, i tan so I never wear it. if your white try to get 10-30 minutes without sunscreen
- I ate more MEAT, and plants
- some supplements, I only take Vitamin D, Digestive enzyme, and Probiotics everyday (helped with my GERD symptoms). I also take others from day to day I also take some electrolytes before working out.
- socialize more (IN PERSON if possible)
- can have existential thoughts and they don't really bother me except some days it will for like 30 minutes MAX
- have actually not experiences DPDR in a long time I think a week or so, I did have an episode the other day, but I simply observed it and it left after 30 minutes.
- only symptoms I have left and some OCD symptoms but even those are like 30% as bad as they were in the last few months.
- feel free to look at my post history I made a lot of posts on this subreddit, but don't stay too long on here.
- I will probably answer some questions people have, but this might be my last post here unless something changes
- typing this I wanna cry, I remember reading all the recovery stories and thinking that will never be me, but wow I really am getting better and better.
- hope you all recover! it is possible I would say I am at 80-90% recovery now (I had it for 6ish years)
