this is not fair man. she loves me soo much. she shows me so much love and support. but my illness will take her away from me.. earlier or later.. it doesnt allow me to have a fullfilled life with her.. although i know, i love her so much, there is no inner drive let alone emotions.. sometimes im more sad for her than for me. she finds someone she can love and be happy when she is with him, but this guy is not able to give her what he needs because of this fucked illness..