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Endlessness.
The endlessness of the physical. The fact that "things" have to expand in some form forever
..take a moment and IMAGINE IT, going on forever and ever, eventually you're going to make your mind put an end to things, but if you've done it long enough, your heart is probably pounding like mine..

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The prospect of an afterlife. Endlessness of yourself or the existence of a "soul."

I find the notion of God to be pretty ridiculous, but a "tier-together" of everything, a sort of "spiritual undercurrent" seems sort of feasible.

I'm terrified of an afterlife that NEVER ends. The thought of having a soul is terrifying. If I have one, I want it to have the ability to die. Which kind of runs again the whole idea of a soul? I can't believe people COMFORT themselves with the idea.

Imagine NEVER BEING ABLE TO DIE. It would be torture. People can't conceive of the horror of it because they see an end to everything. Similar to the idea of God - they have to have a creator because they see creation. And in most cases, they see this creator in the form of a man. Almighty cloudman.

As long as I can remember, I've thought of things this way. I remember when we read whateverthehellthatbookwas with the Fountain of Youth in elementary school we were asked if we would drink from it. All the little kids wanted to find it. I was like... FUCK if this really existed I would NEVER go near another drinking fountain again. I was the only kid in my class who wouldn't even THINK of drinking for eternal earthly existence.

ETERNITY. No matter how happy a person's life is, it still sounds maddening, terrifying, horrible. Everyone is scared of Hell, but eventually, in an eternal and endless state, you'd FEEL the flames of Hell.
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fingertingle said:
Endlessness.
The endlessness of the physical. The fact that "things" have to expand in some form forever
..take a moment and IMAGINE IT, going on forever and ever, eventually you're going to make your mind put an end to things, but if you've done it long enough, your heart is probably pounding like mine..

This and:
The prospect of an afterlife. Endlessness of yourself or the existence of a "soul."

I find the notion of God to be pretty ridiculous, but a "tier-together" of everything, a sort of "spiritual undercurrent" seems sort of feasible.

I'm terrified of an afterlife that NEVER ends. The thought of having a soul is terrifying. If I have one, I want it to have the ability to die. Which kind of runs again the whole idea of a soul? I can't believe people COMFORT themselves with the idea.

Imagine NEVER BEING ABLE TO DIE. It would be torture. People can't conceive of the horror of it because they see an end to everything. Similar to the idea of God - they have to have a creator because they see creation. And in most cases, they see this creator in the form of a man. Almighty cloudman.

As long as I can remember, I've thought of things this way. I remember when we read whateverthehellthatbookwas with the Fountain of Youth in elementary school we were asked if we would drink from it. All the little kids wanted to find it. I was like... f--- if this really existed I would NEVER go near another drinking fountain again. I was the only kid in my class who wouldn't even THINK of drinking for eternal earthly existence.

ETERNITY. No matter how happy a person's life is, it still sounds maddening, terrifying, horrible. Everyone is scared of Hell, but eventually, in an eternal and endless state, you'd FEEL the flames of Hell.
Nobody can prove that God is good....I worry that he makes us think he's good but really evil. And when we finally get to where we're going he takes us to a worse place!

Lets face it, when life is going good and when everyone on this site was
"mentally well" life was good even great for some of us.....but once we hit mental issues or when people go blind or deaf or hit some type of physical issue life becomes a stuggle!

In the end...and I've said this before; life is all about suffering. There is more time of suffering then feeling good. And some people have it worse then others, that's a fact!
Scattered said:
Yes. So lets not play pretend. If we take life at face value, then it is all about suffering. Its woefully inadequate at best and horrifically painful at worst. So either we take life as it is, at face value, and admit that it is sh*t or we aknowledge that it is more than it is.

If you believe that only what you can see, hear, smell, taste, etc is the sum total of life, then lets not f--- around, it sucks. The most that can be acquired are momentary pleasures. We are just not wired for a life of bliss or happiness or satisfaction. Everything fades, distorts, or decays.

I'm simply proposing that there is this sort of decision that has to be made. We either decide to believe that it is what it is and it sucks. Or we decide to believe that its more than it is and theres something better beyond. I'm not advocating a decision, I'm juts bringing attention to the choice. If you disagree then fine, but this is certainly not about simply being depressed for the sake of depression.
Very true! Also, I feel that our brains are more advanced then our bodies. Like we can think and imagine things that humans will never acomplish. It's torture, to be able to think up weird and crazy things...sometimes scary things and not be able to do anything about it. Our body is a prison...that's the closest thing I can compare it to....Youre mind can do things the rest of youre body cant.

It's like having a powerful processor for youre computer and not having a good video card to back up the power.
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