[smog]

The last four months i've taken a shift away from DR after being tormented 24/7 for 16 years. It's kind of strange really, but half a year ago i thought of DR constantly. All the time.
If you can grade it i woud've said that i've gone from a constant 90% DR to a constant 30%.

My approach (Well, Janines approach, really. lol) is to just not think about it. In the course of a day i'm constantly approaced with two "pathways"; One leading to DR-land, and one leading away. The route to DR-ville is allways alluring, but i just let i be and try to continue relentressly down the sane path.

I'm still a psychiatric mess tho. I'm deeply depressed and i still have some anxiety, but I feel like i have discovered some sort of DR-trigger in my brain. I wrote about it in a post a couple of months ago, how i sort of came to an understanding that i am the thoughts i think out loud in my mind, and not some kind of entity that can stand on the outside observing my own thoughts.

What i'm trying to say is that i now try to observe the world instead of observing myself observe the world. And i've been pretty successful this far.

 

[terri*]

Good for you, Smog.

Thanks so much for posting. I hope things just get better and better for you.

Most sincerely,
terri

 

[Guest]

i sort of came to an understanding that i am the thoughts i think out loud in my mind, and not some kind of entity that can stand on the outside observing my own thoughts.

That is a remarkable realization - and it's so easy to say, but not easy to come up with on your own. VERY proud of you!!!

All the best,
Janine

 

[sebastian]

yeah, thanks for posting smog. i don't think we hear about a lot of people when they start to do better, as when one is starting to do better, they are less inclined to commiserate with other sufferers.

hope it gets down to .01%.

s.

 

[Guest]

When DR seems to be at a constant bed level for me, i'm inclined to shut off this mental trigger which only deepens my visual problems. Sometimes this works very well and I can got hours, if not days without Derealization interfering with my life...but eventually it will all come back and hit me when I least expect it, and can catch me off guard. Its a constant defensive state i've got to be in and its hard sometimes, because you almost forget there is anything wrong with you and it sneaks up deep inside your ass.