[nathan69]

Ive almost given up hope. My brain reacted very poorly to xanax and nicotine now i feel like a huge part of my brain to always turned off. it feels like all my emotion has been stripped from me. i recently cried and balled out my eyes but I felt nothing. no saddnes. I dont feel human everything is so messed up and a blur. I WISH I never chose to take those drugs IM SO MAD at my self but im not because i don't feel anger I just know that if i felt the same way before i took the drugs i would be. I feel like I have ruined my life. it feels like I am just living life and reacted to things the same way I would of if I could feel the same way about the particular thing. i don't want to kill myself. I fear death. I just don't know what to do rn I just want to tell someone.