Moving To Fast.

Told my T today that I feel like I can't be adult in the session. I feel very adolestant. I couldn't quite get to what I was thinking or feeling exactly. My T said that I am moving to fast and need to take a step back. I didn't realise really that it was effecting me until we talked about it. I wanted to numb out a few times but its as though I am to aware to do that at the moment. I feel caught between wanting to go back into my little world, and being here in the present. ITs a very strange situation for me right now. All very new. Part of me is afraid that I will have to stay present for ever now, and part of me is afraid that I will numb out again. Geez what have I started!