It's just too hard and too depressing living life like this. You can't just accept it and move on. I miss the past too much. I miss being happy. And I really dwell on the fact that I can't live a happy life ever again. Im gonna be like this forever and it might get worse, and ill never be able to be happy. I lie in bed with my girlfriend now, and I don't even feel her. She talks to me, and Im a hundred miles away.