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hey everyone, my name's Viet, it's my first post, and I've had DP for 4 years.
I was 18 smoking a Huge blunt with 2 of my friends. i told them i have some weird permanant affects of it, but they never believed me cause they smoke all the time and nothing permanant ver happens to them.
i smoke a couple more times, got even worse.
few nights without sleep cause of homework, got a little worse.
got drunk a few times got a little worse
i don't drink more than 1 or two bottles anymore. no weed, and i get as much sleep as i can.
BAM!! i crashed my motorcycle going about 15 miles per hour. i was leaning, and hit some glass on the road, and slammed my head down pretty hard. (this was in july). I remember going to bed at 11, and waking up at 5am with the worst case of DP i've EVER had, and in addition to that, time doesn't feel like normal. Like... you know how noon is supposed to feel like noon, and 6pm is supposed to feel like 6pm, It's all the same now. and i would space out for a while and not know if it was 2pm or 4pm.
BAM!! i crashed my bike again. this time going into the back of an SUV at 25mph, (this was 1 month ago) I was trying to pass and the SUV turned left.... (wasn't my fault or her fault, i did get ticket for no insurance) anyways... after that, days turned to no time at all. and now when i look at the mirror, that's totally not me.
I'd take pictures of myself in my digi camera, and the pictures show a lot of life and i see me. but looking at the real world... it's totally not.
after my dp getting this bad, i emailed one of my old psych teachers, and he was like, oh you have dp. before that, i didn't know other people were having the same problems that i am having.
i'm saving up money for therapy... but, in the meanwhile i've been reading stuff on this forum, and nobody mentioned motorcycle accidents.... or some sort of near death experiences.
and, DP sucks. i need it cured.
- Viet
I was 18 smoking a Huge blunt with 2 of my friends. i told them i have some weird permanant affects of it, but they never believed me cause they smoke all the time and nothing permanant ver happens to them.
i smoke a couple more times, got even worse.
few nights without sleep cause of homework, got a little worse.
got drunk a few times got a little worse
i don't drink more than 1 or two bottles anymore. no weed, and i get as much sleep as i can.
BAM!! i crashed my motorcycle going about 15 miles per hour. i was leaning, and hit some glass on the road, and slammed my head down pretty hard. (this was in july). I remember going to bed at 11, and waking up at 5am with the worst case of DP i've EVER had, and in addition to that, time doesn't feel like normal. Like... you know how noon is supposed to feel like noon, and 6pm is supposed to feel like 6pm, It's all the same now. and i would space out for a while and not know if it was 2pm or 4pm.
BAM!! i crashed my bike again. this time going into the back of an SUV at 25mph, (this was 1 month ago) I was trying to pass and the SUV turned left.... (wasn't my fault or her fault, i did get ticket for no insurance) anyways... after that, days turned to no time at all. and now when i look at the mirror, that's totally not me.
I'd take pictures of myself in my digi camera, and the pictures show a lot of life and i see me. but looking at the real world... it's totally not.
after my dp getting this bad, i emailed one of my old psych teachers, and he was like, oh you have dp. before that, i didn't know other people were having the same problems that i am having.
i'm saving up money for therapy... but, in the meanwhile i've been reading stuff on this forum, and nobody mentioned motorcycle accidents.... or some sort of near death experiences.
and, DP sucks. i need it cured.
- Viet
