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Something rumbling underneath my skin
I could not define it or invite it in
To let it in would be to liberate
To keep it in darkness is to propagate

It's all about
Believing through something that you always doubt

When you have faith you will be willing to wait
When you have faith through all that logic and haste
It's never too late
So try to create
'Cause the last thing that breaks
The last thing that breaks
The last thing that breaks is your faith

Something shouting from behind my eyes
I'm looking too closely to recognize it
To gain perspective think it would be wise
Would you please listen while it testifies now

It's all about
Believing through something that you always doubt

When you have faith you will be willing to wait
When you have faith through all that logic and haste
It's never too late
So try to create
'Cause the last thing that breaks
The last thing that breaks
The last thing that breaks is your faith

And I surrender to this storm
I'm tasting raindrops, sweet and wet and warm
And may I never lose this faith I've found
Keeps me anchored onto solid ground
So let lightning flash and wind swirl around
Around, around, around

When you have faith you will be willing to wait
When you have faith through all that logic and haste
It's never too late
So try to create
'Cause the last thing that breaks
The last thing that breaks
The last thing that breaks is your faith
 

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Thank you Kari for the beautiful lyrics - may I ask you who is the artist? :)

I wanna add one of my favourite lyrics here in this thread too. The band is Die Krupps, German industrial heavy group. Although the lyrics are quite dismal, the song words describe exactly what I feel in my DR cage with icy walls protecting me from life - every word in the song is amazingly true for me.

Odyssey of the mind

Sitting in a cage
An open cage
You're used to its measures
Used to the way it feels

It gives you security
It eases your anxiety
The fear of the unknown
The fear to be all alone
The desire to leave home
The nightmare of being torn

I set my mind on something
I would like to be
And I open up the door
There is so much to explore
I set my mind on things
I would like to see
And I open up the door
There is so much more to score

I sure could leave this cell
But I don't
I should leave this hell
But I won't

There is only one way out of this
It is to travel by mind - noiseless
The body is trapped but the mind soars free
The body is caged but the mind soars free
 

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here are some parts of a song that helped me through some valleys.
to me, its describes letting go of the anger and fear that dp causes.

A long time ago, Janine (99% sure it was Janine) posted that you could equate dp/dr to a ghost. You feed it with fear, obsession, anger, whatever, giving the ghost the opportunity to thrive. Once one lets go of these feelings, when you longer fear the ghost, it has no power to "haunt" you , etc. I don't know, Janine explained it more clearly, the point is being obsessed with your condition only perpetuates it.

Wear the grudge like a crown of negativity.
Desperate to control all and everything.
Unable to forgive your scarlet lettermen.

Wear the grudge like a crown. Desperate to control.
Unable to forgive. And we're sinking deeper.

Give away the stone.
Let the oceans take and transmutate this cold and fated anchor.
Give away the stone.
Let the waters kiss and transmutate these leaden grudges into gold.
Let go.
 
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ha im the king of lyrics, especially since i write & rap myself lol

anyways i kinda find this song by Atmosphere motivational

Nothin But Sunshine by Atmosphere

[Slug]

(Mixed vocals)

Whatta you mean what was my childhood like?
What difference does that make?
Yo, my childhood was messed up, so what?
Everybody's childhood was messed up.
This is the 90's, find me one person who had it right.
What's that got to do with me rhyming?
What's left?

[Slug]
Now when my mother died I had to take it in stride
There ain't no room for pride in watching your father cry
And dad made it until maybe a year later
When they found his suicide inside of a grain elevator
Got over it, I had no other office or options
Thought about whether or not mom and pop was watching
Never bothered with caution, no time for fear
Saw my folks carry fear for most my early years
And I learned from it, turned numb and ignored the storm
A burning sun waiting for the world to plummet
Finished growing up under my uncle's roof
He taught me how to count all the way up to 100 proof
From watching him I learned how to gather nourishment
Living off the different women that he had to nurture him
And on the surface I became a normal pre-teen
More afraid of nuclear war than snake bites and bee stings
My best friend was my TV
Game shows and cartoons substituted for puppies, rainbows, and balloons
Now here I am, the shy type, and I think I'm doing alright
Considering what it was like living my life

Chorus (repeated)

It's nothing but sunshine
It's all sunshine
It's nothing but sunshine

[Slug]
Now it's been 17 summers since I've seen my mother
But every night I see her smile inside my dreams
When I was younger I didn't actually see the accident happen
But every night I see her smile as it shatters against the screams
I can only imagine Dad's internal reaction
Strain, inferno burning, bound in his brain
What's it take to make a man who owns acres of land
Abandon the family plan and drown himself in his grains
I'm glad I left that farm in Northern Minnesota
Where the time moves slower and the winters are colder
Became a city boy, where everybody acts like they older
Where they stick to themselves and keep a chip on they shoulder
26 years of age, no longer full of rage
I think it's safe to say I've turned a page on my childhood days
"Ay yo look Ma, I'm a productive member of society
When I'm drunk I make noise, but otherwise I like quietly"
And on the weekend I go back up north to reminisce
Remember what it was like pretending to be a kid
Late at night I walked the fields and lurk in the shadows
Getting even with life by murdering cattle

Cow Skit

Chorus (repeated)

It's all sunshine
It's nothing but sunshine
It's all sunshine

(And I'm gonna be alright, and you gonna be alright,
You ain't gotta hold my hand, just walk with me tonight)

Fade out

(What it is, it ain't,
and what it ain't it is,
is a theme of a Virgo)
 
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lemme add one more for now

Atmosphere- Free Or Dead

So here I am, trying to be the man, right
Using my gun to see at night, sleeping with my flash light
In the afterlife I hope the AC works
So while I wait well I'ma pass out and taste this curb
And she attacked with flirts, smacked my nerves
There in that black skirt
Got my nature so hard it made my back hurt
I cracked a smirk cuz I was dumb and drunk
she gave wink and a smile and dropped a quarter in my cup
man, people are kind of odd so I keep my eyebrow raised
I only hear the words for what they mean, know what I mean?
and I do believe in God cuz I keep comin across all these fine woman

with low self esteem, you know what I mean?
I got attention deficet, I've got the bedroom eyes
I've the storms in my head, I've got my telephone voice
I've got to make a decision of whether I live or die
I'd rather just run cuz either way it's one hell of a choice

[Chorus]
my car is like my own personal universe
she's my drug and it only takes twelve bucks to fill 'er up
but in my galaxy there ain't no room for Earth
so I'm leavin it cuz I can feel the oil pressure building up
turning over the ignition of my solar system
check the gauges, push in the tape, put my foot on the break
shift existance light my cigarette
and take it state to state until I crash into my fate

now I'm giving back everything they gave me, not a damn thing
it'll take me more than a good DJ to save me, and I'm not dancing
I can't seem to make up my bed, much less my mind
so I'm a take another puff to my head, and press rewind
I wish this car had cruise control, so I could rest my legs
I've got this itch to prove my soul, and test my fate
doing hunny(hundred) in a sixty five, got stopped by a copper
caught, spotted, and radared by a chopper
Wisconsin-style, over the limit by forty miles
why'd she smile?, cuz I ain't been around here for a long while
grabbed my paper, gave her thanks?, have a nice day
yo, word of advice, trade the doughnuts in and gets some rice cakes
back to my travels, running from my shadows
some hitchhikers and bikers honkin the horn harrasin the cattle
airbags/hair back sticking to the seat, sweat drippin from the heat
diggin through of gruel?, I'm looking for something to eat
yo, there's a Hardee's at the next stop
don't wanna, but I need ta'
cuz I'm craving something to chase the taste of this tequila

(uhh, yeah, you guys got value meals? can you put some barbecue
sauce... I wanna honey bun. change that shit. I want chicken pebbles.
no, onion bun, onion bun. onion rings. extra pork. word up. can you
supersize that? yo girl, you got kind of a pretty voice. yo girl, what
time yu get off work?)

90 east towards Chicago, on my way to Cincinnati
I won't ever let em catch me, and I won't ever make em happy
watch your wives and your daughters when I'm passin through the

hometown, castin lines into the water, catchin goldfish out your bowl
and I'm as cool as the cat that came to school just for lunch
I'm the rebel pissin in the public pool, just for fun
I speed in the sun, everyone in speakin in tounges
find the talk radio station, yo, turn it up so it bumps
don't cry, girl, I'm out and I'm a make my way east
cuz everyone in my world is takin my peace
I need release, and I don't think I'm a find it in between your legs
yo, I'm just jokin, only going to the corner to get some eggs
so when she starts makin the coffee I toss my bags in the back seat
and I can remember it all like it must have happened last week
sometimes I stop to think, for all the money I've spent
how I'd rather live in a tent than bust my ass and pay the rent
but I'm eager to pay my dues, and I'd be glad to pay the tollbooth
and I've agreed to sing the blues ever since the day I broke loose
just like a blindfolded child walking through the toy store
voice?, not even aware that the world is my oyster

[Chorus - 2X]
 
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RJD2 feat Copywrite- June ( I urge everyone to download this song, its a great song, whether you like rap or not, i think you could appreciate, the beat is beautiful, crazy instrumentation & two great verses)

RJD2 drop that shit so I can drop my thoughts
Driftin away, and depress all within listening range
Nah but for real I got so much shit on my mind
From fake motherfuckers to my future I'm trying to get in line
And doing hip hop in this life in time ain't all nice and fine
At times I feel like my whole life's a rhyme
Full of punchlines and jokes
Fuck ups and punchins
It's like I can't get shit right the first time or something
When no one knows your name, your vinyl's still in stores
Once you get a little light through arguing over who feels it more
We got sixteen year old Led( Zeppelin) heads buying garbage
Wanting to keep you from their personal private artists
We don't do shit for the clubs
It's for our forty fives,
go RJ the archaeologist diggin them up
And I'm the same cent,
To vinyl that gets sent to bash
In this for life til my final mic check is cashed

Beat Plays

Verse 2

Yo
I Can't fully become my mothers guiding light
Till my dad returns to tell me what the other side is like
I keep the things he taught, trapped in mind
I know you cared, even though you weren't here half the time
But who am I to blame? Id probably do the same in your shoes
I never held that against you, complained, or assumed
You never went through what im livin
Hell who am i kiddin? Depression is practically part of family tradition
So I keep the time we shared close
It sucks to loose
It also sucks we had to share the month of June
I would have shared eternal time before it left
Each month I celebrate my birth, Im reminded of your death

Beat plays until song fades

Party For The Fight To Write- Atmosphere

yeah i been listenin to em lately lol

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Hides the eyes beneath the bill of the cap
Walks amoungst the flies that hover over the mat
He lies, but only when there's a reason
Mentions life by the tragedy, the comedy, the season
Poor at handling and managing income
Got enough love to pass around and then some
Been done, that there a name you can trust
Read the whole match book and put a flame to the brush
Good with packs, and rips up sacks
Put the show in biz, try to give what you get
When you let him run free with the thought
Pull the line in, try to see what you caught
I ain't all that bad, but I ain't all that great
I Went back to the lab and began to mutate
Wait. I still look the same, still got the same dumb name
Ain't a damn thing changed
But if you like surprises, I know of a party
Where they all dance around to your heart beat
Bring your own agenda and embrace your flaws
Lets put a face on this common cause

chorus:
And he said some got pencils and some got guns
Some know how to stand and some of them run
We don't get along, but we sing the same song
Party for the fight to write, and write on

Stay gold Pony Boy, stay true outspoken
Make a record Mr. Gangster and get 'em all open
The theories, the stories, the truths, the myths
Its all therapy, on top of turntablists
This indutry's big, so big in fact (and fat?)
We can all get some, and we can give some back
And if its done correct, we'll make more than noise
So pick it up, and pick me up when you're bored with the toys
As a child Hip Hop made me read books,
And Hip Hop made me wanna be a crook
And Hip Hop gave me the way and something to say
And all I took in return is a second look
Son, you're shook, cuz ain't no such thing as half way there
Gettin' good at actin' like you just don't care
The circle of life trying to make it square condition
And self sit still
And Still.. where have all the sheep gone
Burnt down the farm and turned the TV on
John Coltrine, Marvin Gaye and Bob Marley all get invitations to my party

chorus

And if I spent anymore time inside my head
I'd probably need some leather straps attatched to my bed
And if I go another day without eating a meal
I'm gonna show you what it means to keep it real
And if they keep shootin' guns up and down my block
I Swear to God I'll be the first one to call the cops
And if I gotta hear that song ever again
You gonna have to share some of that beer my friend
They mistake me as happy-go-lucky
Just another base-head bobbin' nobody
But from where I stand, they sould like spies
Fillin' all the children's head with lies
Well alright, get your money right
But right now tonight I want you to pick a side
So when you got your power and you got your chedder
Let's get together soldier over throw this hold and make these roads better
Bring it on.. he said bring it on (right now)
Ain't nothin' but a party y'all... lets get it on

chorus
 

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Comfortably Numb by Pink Floyd
Album: The Wall
Date: 1979

Roger Waters wrote the lyrics. While many people thought the song is about drugs, Waters claims it is not. The lyrics are about what he felt like as a child when he was sick with a fever. As an adult, he got that feeling again sometimes, entering a state of delirium, where he felt detached from reality.
 
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I say screw Roger Waters own interpretation. I love Pink Floyd, but Waters made it a bad habit to reveal what his songs were about. I think he should've been quiet and left it up to the listeners imagination. I always interpreted that song to be about DP/drug's. It reminds me so well of my initial DP experience and paxil experience. I think I first saw the lyrics of that song at Dreamer's website. That is what turned me onto floyd. Thanks Dreamer!
 
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nemesis said:
Comfortably Numb by Pink Floyd
Album: The Wall
Date: 1979

Roger Waters wrote the lyrics. While many people thought the song is about drugs, Waters claims it is not. The lyrics are about what he felt like as a child when he was sick with a fever. As an adult, he got that feeling again sometimes, entering a state of delirium, where he felt detached from reality.
I love feeling comfortably numb.. but the whole time I'm feeling it, I'm waiting with a "dual" vigilance for someone to snap me out of it.. ie make noise, ask me a question, phone ring. I feel comfortably numb, like Ice and water a "blue cool" feelings, with a second internal thread of extreme vigilance..

Hate overload. No-one can H.EAR me.

I never lose my faith.. (Kari), it's dumb, but I can never lose my faith.
I dont pray, or go to church or read the bible, but my faith is beyond rock solid. It never wanes. I get anti-suicide at times, because it all feels too real to "go over".. I can never lose faith, it's unspoken and acknowledged.
If you lose faith, you drown. People push you into a very tight corner, until you feel totally faithless though.
 

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Something strange goin on :?
Something's wrong :shock:
Gloom in the room
Outside is the storm
All alone in the crib
Watchin the tube
Yo-o-o-o is that what I think? :?
Did I see somethin move? :shock:
Chill down your spine
Your heart fills with fright
Not filled by the things
that GO BUMP IN THE NIGHT
They walk through the walls
With no time to stall
You call the GHOSTBUSTERS
Well that's who you call!

GHOSTBUSTERS! :D
We ain't-we ain't-we
We ain't afraid of no ghosts
GHOSTBUSTERS! :D
We ain't-we ain't-we
We ain't afraid of no ghosts
GHOSTBUSTERS! :D
We ain't-we ain't-we
We ain't afraid of no ghosts
GHOSTBUSTERS! :D
Stop! UHH!
Bridge
Hit it!

I-I ain't, I-I ain't
I ain't afraid of no ghosts 8)
I, I-I ain't afraid
I-I ain't, I-I ain't
I-I-I, I-I-I ain't afraid of no ghosts

GHOSTBUSTERS!

[Run] All alone on the phone
so whassup with that noise?
The wife's at work and I'm no jerk
and I just left my boys
? at school and I'm no fool
and I got no time to waste
So you get up and call, don't trip and fall
Go outside and leave the place
Now it's no dream because you seein
a shadow in the night
But we will come and get it done
so don't worry save your fright
Now there's a group who likes to troop
and you know you can trust us
So don't get nervous cause at your service
the local GHOSTBUSTERS!

I ain't afraid of no ghosts
I ain't I ain't afraid of no ghosts
GHOSTBUSTERS!
I ain't afraid of no ghosts
I ain't I ain't afraid of no ghosts
GHOSTBUSTERS!

[DMC] Aight aight aight
I remember the time, I visited the grave
My life on the line, only my life to save
All by myself, with no one around
Did not understand a hand comin out the ground
I knew it wasn't mine, it was somebody else
But I didn't care G, I just screamed for HELP!
Then - GHOSTBUSTERS - had strapped to their back
Screamin - GHOSTBUSTERS - those 'busters attacked
"We are your friendly neighborhood ghostbusters,"
that's what they said to me
"We are the busters of an ?, G-H-O-S-T"

GHOSTBUSTERS!
I ain't-I ain't-I ain't
I ain't afraid of no ghosts
GHOSTBUSTERS!
I ain't-I ain't-I ain't
I ain't afraid of no ghosts

Howling haunting
Scaring screaming
Ghostly ghosts
Ghouling demons!
Monsters spooks
Werewolves and devils
All those things
on the same level
Nightmares (bad dreams) cannot be beat
It takes a brave man (to stand in defeat)
Must be the bravest (yo, the bravest and most)
You must be able to say, "I ain't afarid of no ghosts"
A good sense of humor, is important to have
When a ghost tries to scare you (ha, don't make me laugh)
They be dustin off ghosts, like true ghost-dusters
Go, go, go, go, ghoooooosstbusters!

GHOSTBUSTERS!

[D.M.C.]
Busters, busters!
One time in the house
Peace to everybody out there
We love ya, peace

I AIN'T AFRAID OF NO GHOSTS!!! :twisted:
 
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Fear & loathing in Las Vegas, emphasis on loathing. We ALL know I'm gonna get banned here nomatter WHAT I do, let's face it.

Misty, I'm sorry, I'm a "jerk". I'm sorry
 
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