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I have somehow managed to stop thinking thoughts about existence but instead its now moved to something else...

At the moment I've got an obsession about how do I think? where do the thoughts come from? What makes random thoughts just pop into my head? How does memory work? If someone asks me whats 2 + 2, I automatically know the answer is 4 but how do I know that? How am I able to talk in sentences and know what to say next? How do I know what to say in the first place and how do I decide whether to say something out loud or not? Arrrrggghh

Are there actually any answers to these questions? Do they actually make any sense or are they just pointless to think about? They feel like they should make sense and that there is an answer but I can't tell if that is correct or am I just deluding myself?

How come when I put these questions to my dad he just shrugged and said "Maybe a neurologist could answer them but I'm not a neurologist so I can't be bothered to think about it!"

I dont know....I swear this is going to drive me insane soon!!!
 

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I have somehow managed to stop thinking thoughts about existence but instead its now moved to something else...

At the moment I've got an obsession about how do I think? where do the thoughts come from? What makes random thoughts just pop into my head? How does memory work? If someone asks me whats 2 + 2, I automatically know the answer is 4 but how do I know that? How am I able to talk in sentences and know what to say next? How do I know what to say in the first place and how do I decide whether to say something out loud or not? Arrrrggghh

Are there actually any answers to these questions? Do they actually make any sense or are they just pointless to think about? They feel like they should make sense and that there is an answer but I can't tell if that is correct or am I just deluding myself?

How come when I put these questions to my dad he just shrugged and said "Maybe a neurologist could answer them but I'm not a neurologist so I can't be bothered to think about it!"

I dont know....I swear this is going to drive me insane soon!!!
 

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I'll bet my life you are not, in any way gonna go insane just because of those questions you're asking

try this... i woke up in the morning, walked outside to go to class and as i was walking-- i started thinking "how am i able to walk? my legs are moving and i am walking--- my brain commands me to walk, neurons sends signals to my nerves and blah blah-- i tell myself, i am human and my specie has legs to walk to go places---( and try comparing humans to dogs and apes and curtaceans)just like them!--- and so on and so on...

sumtimes i freak out-- and so the list goes on-- like how do i see, why can i understand the words i am reading=-- even communicating-- speaking sumtimes i wonder--- so many thinngs for a year and still i am alive and normal-- they say

sorry got too long i kinda enjoying it.. :)
 

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I'll bet my life you are not, in any way gonna go insane just because of those questions you're asking

try this... i woke up in the morning, walked outside to go to class and as i was walking-- i started thinking "how am i able to walk? my legs are moving and i am walking--- my brain commands me to walk, neurons sends signals to my nerves and blah blah-- i tell myself, i am human and my specie has legs to walk to go places---( and try comparing humans to dogs and apes and curtaceans)just like them!--- and so on and so on...

sumtimes i freak out-- and so the list goes on-- like how do i see, why can i understand the words i am reading=-- even communicating-- speaking sumtimes i wonder--- so many thinngs for a year and still i am alive and normal-- they say

sorry got too long i kinda enjoying it.. :)
 

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how do we talk

how do we sentences together

how do we walk

how do we know the answers to questions

were do thoughts come from

why did i just scratch my head

I think everyone with dp asks these questions and you do feel like your going insane, but there are no answers they are just things we can do, freaky isnt it.

My main one at the moment is how can i see, i have read kids books about it saying light shines through your retinas but that doesnt help, it like how the hell do people know that.

Hang in there genie I think you are on the next stage, a bit closer to normality, but definetly not there yet
 

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how do we talk

how do we sentences together

how do we walk

how do we know the answers to questions

were do thoughts come from

why did i just scratch my head

I think everyone with dp asks these questions and you do feel like your going insane, but there are no answers they are just things we can do, freaky isnt it.

My main one at the moment is how can i see, i have read kids books about it saying light shines through your retinas but that doesnt help, it like how the hell do people know that.

Hang in there genie I think you are on the next stage, a bit closer to normality, but definetly not there yet
 

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I hadn't thought about the thought "how can I see" yet dreamcatcher.
Maybe that is another one I can add to my list lol

Funny isn't it how people with DP seem to think about the same sort of questions. I wonder if anyone who hasn't had DP has thought about all these weird things.
 

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I hadn't thought about the thought "how can I see" yet dreamcatcher.
Maybe that is another one I can add to my list lol

Funny isn't it how people with DP seem to think about the same sort of questions. I wonder if anyone who hasn't had DP has thought about all these weird things.
 
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Non dpers accept it as given. That is why wondering about ordinary things doesn't lead to anything. Just accept it. It works.
Although I must say that I never wonder about those things, the only thing that used to puzzle me was the fact that I haven't just fainted yet because of the dp. And the issue about going crazy. But I think during our most important years in childhood (like the first three years or so) we have had a good time to practice what reality is, therefore we don't go crazy and therefore we are able to do all things that are human, because we've practiced it sufficiently.
 
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Non dpers accept it as given. That is why wondering about ordinary things doesn't lead to anything. Just accept it. It works.
Although I must say that I never wonder about those things, the only thing that used to puzzle me was the fact that I haven't just fainted yet because of the dp. And the issue about going crazy. But I think during our most important years in childhood (like the first three years or so) we have had a good time to practice what reality is, therefore we don't go crazy and therefore we are able to do all things that are human, because we've practiced it sufficiently.
 

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Genie-

Just wanted to chime in and let you know you are not alone. I grappled with much of the same issues. The impossible questions are so difficult. When its not existence, its your actions, or the nature of thinking, or time, etc. We are so talented at being able to ask questions that are impossible to answer, and deep down, we know it, but just cannot stop. Believe me, I completely sympathize with the hell that you must be going through. I literally could not think anything other than those thoughts for the longest time. It feels like you have to keep asking those things and freaking yourself out because eventually you may understand them... but accepting that you cannot understand them only adds to more frustration!

I reckon that the cure for this is to be able to live with NOT knowing, being able to live with that. Sometimes when things got really bad for me, I thought about all the other things in the world that I did not know how they worked (like cold fusion or something=]) and told myself that If i could live ok not knowing how that works, then this would be okay as well. In the end however, the only thing that helped me is meds because the thoughts just escalated into such a spiral that I would just be in a state of panic all day, and I needed to perform at work in order to keep a roof over my head. Its so weird, but being on meds (in my case effexor) just completely stops you from even being able to think those things... Its like painting a window black. Even though now I still try to look out it all day, and ponder the myriad of impossibilities of existence, I simply... cannot. I do believe that one day I will be able to live like this without meds, but It will be a long slog through therapy. I invite anyone else who has experienced the same to share their experience.
 

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Genie-

Just wanted to chime in and let you know you are not alone. I grappled with much of the same issues. The impossible questions are so difficult. When its not existence, its your actions, or the nature of thinking, or time, etc. We are so talented at being able to ask questions that are impossible to answer, and deep down, we know it, but just cannot stop. Believe me, I completely sympathize with the hell that you must be going through. I literally could not think anything other than those thoughts for the longest time. It feels like you have to keep asking those things and freaking yourself out because eventually you may understand them... but accepting that you cannot understand them only adds to more frustration!

I reckon that the cure for this is to be able to live with NOT knowing, being able to live with that. Sometimes when things got really bad for me, I thought about all the other things in the world that I did not know how they worked (like cold fusion or something=]) and told myself that If i could live ok not knowing how that works, then this would be okay as well. In the end however, the only thing that helped me is meds because the thoughts just escalated into such a spiral that I would just be in a state of panic all day, and I needed to perform at work in order to keep a roof over my head. Its so weird, but being on meds (in my case effexor) just completely stops you from even being able to think those things... Its like painting a window black. Even though now I still try to look out it all day, and ponder the myriad of impossibilities of existence, I simply... cannot. I do believe that one day I will be able to live like this without meds, but It will be a long slog through therapy. I invite anyone else who has experienced the same to share their experience.
 
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