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thanks for your kind replies....

well my dad has given me the biggest bollocking ever as he found id drank all his beers,so guilt is overflowing at the moment,and when he finds ive drank all the brandy,rum and vodka....oh shit ! it could be the streets for me...
i just replied to an email from gaenor and i explained to her that when i used to drink the world felt ok...you know nice and hazy...but now the world feels and looks worse than ever(when drunk)...this is not a good sign,this feels detremental to me...but hey,im alive and kicking and there was a time before drink and ive had 16 years of getting my kicks from booze (long time,ive just realised how scary that is)

today was quite embarressing i visited the local church where they hold the meetings and all the women were there with there kids (some kind of creche) and i was asked if i need help i asked her in front of all these women (in a quiet mumble) yeh what days and times are the A.A meetings lol

well, JC, no matter if you had to stumble over a few kids and some church women...you did it, my man.

and that is cool.

terri*

hey jc be proud of your self you've made the first move......2nd move is to attend one......good luck

I too would have felt embarrassed in that church. But totally worth it!
Good luck x :wink:

thanks folks...yes i went ! and met a bunch of wonderful people from all walks of life...#
im pretty tired though,got talking to a lovely girl afterwards who runs the official website and she told me that this 'god' thing is bullshit if you want it to be,she was the same as me with her outlook,that of being an atheist and that of just wanting to stay dry,which shes been doing for around 5 years now....it was nervewracking and getting over the true god stuff was difficult,all that 'big book' stuff...but they mentioned that it is 'your god' your strength whatever that might be,and that it could be anything..
well heres to sundays meeting...good fuckin crack as well,lots of laughs amongts the serious stuff

g-funk said:

I too would have felt embarrassed in that church. But totally worth it!
Good luck x :wink:

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hey your coming with me sunday lol