[NomdeGuerra]

Hi all,

Posted here for a while a long time ago (L.Z) when i suffered from derealisation caused by extreme existential anxiety in the years before
I recovered after a few years with medication and time.

4 week ago my mom passed away after a long illness and she made the choice for euthanasia.
we as a family were with her when she died in peace.
In the week before the moment my existential fears came back big time but now fixated on death and the meaning of life. Now these thoughts became an 24/7 obsession for me and its spiraling out of hand. Feeling so so hopeless and dont know what to do anymore…

Is this Trauma? Anxiety? Grieve?
I really don’t know because of my history and all.

Wasn’t sure to post this here but maybe someone have sume insights or advice…
Really hope so cause ik desperate.

Love

 

[C8H11NO3]

Very sorry for your loss. If medication worked for you in the past, it’s worth checking in with a doctor to see if that’s an option. Hopefully, you just need help to navigate some rough waters and will come thought it fine. Sending my best wishes!

 

[mrboss2020]

Majority of humans will come to these thoughts. I have before and sometimes it comes. I think your mothers death has made your issues more difficult and I'm incredibly sorry about your mothers death. But I can say the best thing you can do is not quickly turn to medications but to turn to your family and speak with them about these thoughts. Maybe go to a religious counselor or just a therapist? I think surrounding yourself with people and talking is the best thing you can do.

Good luck.