Sometimes i find myself walking to my next class-
i then realize iM not thinking at all
my legs are taking me somewhere and i have forgotten where im supposed to be
it's weird cause my body knows where to go despite i myself not knowing
i then remember where i have to be once im almost getting there-
i forget simple chores and simple things i had to buy-
anyone else experience this?
Definitely. It happens all the time that I enter in a room and I don't remember what I wanted to do. Very often my kitchen is full of stuff I have started doing but interrupted myself in the process. I write down on my phone everything I should remember at work, but very often I can forget what I am supposed to write in just the amount of time it takes to take my phone out of my pocket. Or I remember something else I should have written, then try to focus on the first one first, don't remember it, so go to the second, and don't remember it either. When you give such examples to people, even therapists, their reaction might be "but this happens to everybody". It's true, those things happen to everybody, but to me they happen way to often and it's definitely a problem at work.
But I have been diagnosed with ADHD too. The thing with ADHD is that it is supposed to start in childhood, which is the case for me, but I think my memory might have gotten worse with DPDR, and it most probably got worse a few years ago, after I had tried some medication. They also told me it could be that I am decompensating. That my memory has always been bad, but I could compensate with other things before and now my brain is "tired" of compensating. I think stress probably helped me focusing on things, because I was afraid of them, and as my stress reduced a lot in the past years, maybe my bad memory became more apparent, I don't know.
When I got tested for ADHD, it was clear that those memory problems (even if partially caused by DPDR) were affecting my life. But when my memory got tested, I had results that were above average in every category. They had me memorize a shopping list, and in a few minutes I could remember 16 very different items. But the next day I had to go shopping in real life, forgot to go, and when I went there I forgot to buy what I wanted to buy in the first place and got something else, so I had to go back. So I could not even remember a one item list. This is the weird thing. I can be very focused and perform well in certain tasks and certain contexts (like a memory test in a doctor's office, because I enjoy the challenge), but suck a lot in other contexts. Apparently this is typical of ADHD too, I don't know if it is typical of DPDR or brain fog though. But it's the experience I have.