Thanks for responding you guys! I'll glad I'm not the only one, I don't see that many topics about memory loss so I'm glad to have put one out there.
The memories I once had seem foreign to me like it was not me who actually experienced them. Does anyone else feel this way?
I feel the same way, the memories I do have are very vague, just flashes of images that I can't hold in my brain, like trying to focus on a blackboard without glasses on. They don't have any emotional attachment, which I think is very important to memory. I think the memory loss is due in part to being emotionally disconnected from ourselves, I know that in the past before DP, I had blocked out a lot of painful memories, mostly of relationships gone wrong, being anxious in my childhood, or traumatic drug experiences. know that it's totally possible to get the connect with your memories back, I think its a matter of fixing the DP/DR and anxiety issues first, then the memories will come.
Same here. It's like if suddently i forget everything about this world and who im, and what im doing. Really, it's so scary when it happens.
Yeah, it's the most frightening experience I've ever had. But for me it gets better at times, mostly when I'm with other people who can help me feel more human. I never feel I have a grip on who I am or what I've done or where I am, but not thinking about it is the closest, and eventually when the fear goes away, reality will too.
Awesome post!
Yeah I have this so badly, sometimes I feel like I have like early onset dementia or something. All of my memories seem as though they are so far away. I use to picture the days of the week in my head clearly, and go through events and memories really methodically, but now it seems so scattered and disorganized.. Does this happen to anyone?
I think the worse thing is forgetting things like appointments and dates, and generally feeling like you are failing at everyday life! But it will get better.. no place to go but up
Yo I totally convinced myself I had alzheimer's for a while, because I took some test in a book and... well I didn't pass the test... but it's more of a dissociative amnesia that actual physical memory loss, so if we can stop dissociating we can get it all back, right? it's all in our brains, we just can't access it. Scattered and disorganized is the way to put it, I can't keep track of one thought or image, it slips away into another thought too quickly to really process. my sense of time is boggled too... what day is today??? what I have been doing is writing down what happens to me everyday, and even though by the end of the day I have trouble getting it all down, it helps to be able to look back at it. It doesn't work perfectly but it help. No place to go but up is right! we can get out of this dreamlike state, it's a matter of willpower, patience, and discipline. Not to mention hope, compassion, and love.
Stick in there guys, you're all strong people!
