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Hey I have a question DP community, did you guys experience severe memory loss with your DP? I feel that I can follow the basic guidelines for recovery, and I've managed to start to feel much better, but one thing that is persistant is my inability to remember things. I know it's mostly in my head, but I honestly seem to forget most of my life. I can't remember my childhood one bit, not even highschool. Even last month seems a million miles away. It's like I detach from my past as soon as it happens, like yesterday was another lifetime. I also forget basic information about the world we live in, it really hurts my sense of self and my confidence. The worst is not remembering my friends very well, I feel extra distant from them and they seem like strangers, even my parents. I feel like I've lost every bit of myself, and I feel so blank and empty of thought or emotion. Somedays I feel that recovery is impossible if I cannot hold on to anything I learn. But then again isn't the point to not hold on, to live in the moment? I suppose acceptance comes first, then the recovering. I am hopeful that even after 4 years I can recover from this, but I seem to grow more distant everyday. I was just hoping some of you could share your experiences with losing memory, it would mean a lot to me. I love each and everyone of you guys, I know that we can overcome this and in the end become stronger, more loving people.