does any of you with derealization suffer with following conversations with only being able to absorb parts of what was being discussed or sometimes forgetting the whole dialogue altogether a couple minutes later. can short term memory take such a big hit with intense derealization because even car rides trigger memory lapses in me like certain places along the way I wouldn't even remember going by and the same even goes for when I take walks like some familiar spots on my route I would forget that I went by it and then can't know if you were there or not. it's like my short term memory glitches and it's the same when doing my normal routines in the morning getting ready like it's not automatic and requires deep planning before you miss an important step. this all started from a viscious panic attack I had last Thursday and then the short term memory, brain fog, numbness behind forehead followed and is still there today. I had a ct in the hospital that came back normal but I'm trying to figure out if this is really derealization?
memory lapses and conversations
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Derealization from what I can tell is just the visual effects you get while stuck in the flight mode or whatever. Anxiety.
The memory stuff sucks and is common. Lots of factors there with people that include insomnia and living in your head and "checking" and "noticing" and medications etc....
So yeah I have bad memory stuff. Even when I'm doing good I have some memory issues. I will submit 2 things for you to think about or check in to.
1. Are you living in your head. Overthinking. I say this cause I do this. This is often seen as anxiety. This is how you can be driving on the same road you do all the time and then lose where you are at. You have doubts about yourself (which DP/DR fucking does to you) and you are in your head.
So yeah I seem to see memory issues and will think with some of them (like you describe) are from me being in my head and then "checking" later. By checking i mean like "did I remember going by X. I didn't!" this leads in to number 2
2. Before DP/DR how much would you remember these things? Sometimes I do this (though its more fucking "checking"...). I think about perhaps this shit was happening anyways and the disorder is fucking with me. I remember my brother had this shit before me. And I told him about how much i'm fucking up at work and stuff and he told me about how it tricks ya in to thinking that. And realizing this helps you get out and do better. Also (and btw this is more "checking" which you eventually have to stop doing) just listen to other people who are "normal" and you hear them say things like "Oh man I forgot my jacket!" and hear them confuse stories and not notice things. This stuff helps you understand that while yes there are real things happening it's also fucking with your head.
I been doing too much checking and all that shit myself lately :/
So one good thing to do is forgive yourself. Don't let it make you anxious.
The memory stuff sucks and is common. Lots of factors there with people that include insomnia and living in your head and "checking" and "noticing" and medications etc....
So yeah I have bad memory stuff. Even when I'm doing good I have some memory issues. I will submit 2 things for you to think about or check in to.
1. Are you living in your head. Overthinking. I say this cause I do this. This is often seen as anxiety. This is how you can be driving on the same road you do all the time and then lose where you are at. You have doubts about yourself (which DP/DR fucking does to you) and you are in your head.
So yeah I seem to see memory issues and will think with some of them (like you describe) are from me being in my head and then "checking" later. By checking i mean like "did I remember going by X. I didn't!" this leads in to number 2
2. Before DP/DR how much would you remember these things? Sometimes I do this (though its more fucking "checking"...). I think about perhaps this shit was happening anyways and the disorder is fucking with me. I remember my brother had this shit before me. And I told him about how much i'm fucking up at work and stuff and he told me about how it tricks ya in to thinking that. And realizing this helps you get out and do better. Also (and btw this is more "checking" which you eventually have to stop doing) just listen to other people who are "normal" and you hear them say things like "Oh man I forgot my jacket!" and hear them confuse stories and not notice things. This stuff helps you understand that while yes there are real things happening it's also fucking with your head.
I been doing too much checking and all that shit myself lately :/
So one good thing to do is forgive yourself. Don't let it make you anxious.
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I definitely suffer with following conversations and what is being discussed. Particularly when there are more people around. I would say for you as this is very early. get your anxiety under control. Even if that means benzo's in the short term. Try and relax, not overthink or overdo and over research. Do things you enjoy and try to distract yourself from this rather than focus on it for the meantime.
I would really focus on the here and now rather than the future here, and just get that stress response under control as much as you can
I would really focus on the here and now rather than the future here, and just get that stress response under control as much as you can
This has been a constant thing for me for many years now. People keep saying anxiety but I have to tell you it sure seems like a lot of this stuff hangs around indefinitely.
You can do everything right, take your meds, go to therapy, etc, and still have all of this stuff. I can barely follow anything anymore - movies, conversations. I can only barely remember what I did yesterday. Life is a fractured blur in every sense of the word. Time, distance, all of it's distorted.
This is no way to live, but you are not alone.
You can do everything right, take your meds, go to therapy, etc, and still have all of this stuff. I can barely follow anything anymore - movies, conversations. I can only barely remember what I did yesterday. Life is a fractured blur in every sense of the word. Time, distance, all of it's distorted.
This is no way to live, but you are not alone.
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