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I thought id update my situation since many of you have supported me through the whole Melbourne ...shall we say...process.

Well, i am doing ok and better than Id ever hoped. That's not to say that I am anxiety and dp free. I still get anxiety and panic most days and as I face new situations but overall it is bearable. I get dp sometimes late in the evening when my body is preparing for sleep...I guess the stress of the day catches up with me. In these situations, I put on a guided relaxation tape and I go to sleep and wake up fine.

I am very proud of myself. I have faced every single situation that I had phobias about...and I am surviving. I hope with time, the anxiety will lessen as I go about my life. Its still pretty hard and I think sad to have to experience this and I get frustrated often as I think that I deserve better.

This time two years ago...I was severely agoraphobic, dp'd and convinced that the hell was never going to end. If anyone had said that Id leave my family behind and travel to the other side of Australia I would have become depressed at the unlikelihood of that ever happening.

I guess I want to share this in hope that it might cheer someone up. I am learning that I am overly negative in my predictions of the future and that the bad stuff I predict rarely, if ever, happens. I am also learning that I am a lot stronger than I think I am too.

I just got a new job too and for once in my life, it is one that I actually feel like I can do without stressing myself out to the max. So, Melbourne is turning out pretty well so far. For those of you reading this in Melbourne...this is a beautiful city and the people are the friendliest I have ever come across in my travels .

There is hope, EVEN if you are convinced that there's not.
 
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I thought id update my situation since many of you have supported me through the whole Melbourne ...shall we say...process.

Well, i am doing ok and better than Id ever hoped. That's not to say that I am anxiety and dp free. I still get anxiety and panic most days and as I face new situations but overall it is bearable. I get dp sometimes late in the evening when my body is preparing for sleep...I guess the stress of the day catches up with me. In these situations, I put on a guided relaxation tape and I go to sleep and wake up fine.

I am very proud of myself. I have faced every single situation that I had phobias about...and I am surviving. I hope with time, the anxiety will lessen as I go about my life. Its still pretty hard and I think sad to have to experience this and I get frustrated often as I think that I deserve better.

This time two years ago...I was severely agoraphobic, dp'd and convinced that the hell was never going to end. If anyone had said that Id leave my family behind and travel to the other side of Australia I would have become depressed at the unlikelihood of that ever happening.

I guess I want to share this in hope that it might cheer someone up. I am learning that I am overly negative in my predictions of the future and that the bad stuff I predict rarely, if ever, happens. I am also learning that I am a lot stronger than I think I am too.

I just got a new job too and for once in my life, it is one that I actually feel like I can do without stressing myself out to the max. So, Melbourne is turning out pretty well so far. For those of you reading this in Melbourne...this is a beautiful city and the people are the friendliest I have ever come across in my travels .

There is hope, EVEN if you are convinced that there's not.
 
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Your post does cheer me up, that's for sure.

Why did you leave your family in the first place?
(im asking because that is what im going to do too)
 
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Your post does cheer me up, that's for sure.

Why did you leave your family in the first place?
(im asking because that is what im going to do too)
 

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Monika,

I just could not be any happier for you. What a trooper you have become. I think your post should surely help others that continue to struggle with the problems that you are working so intently on overcoming.

It's a bungee jump...a scarey as hell bungee jump. But as Monika has written and shown, it can be done. The fears we go over and over in our head hardly ever come to fruition. And that is great news!

Good for you, Monika.
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Monika,

I just could not be any happier for you. What a trooper you have become. I think your post should surely help others that continue to struggle with the problems that you are working so intently on overcoming.

It's a bungee jump...a scarey as hell bungee jump. But as Monika has written and shown, it can be done. The fears we go over and over in our head hardly ever come to fruition. And that is great news!

Good for you, Monika.
terri
 
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Dear I,
Leaving my family was incidental to moving interstate. I did't want to leave them as I miss them. Having said that, it is probably good for me to be so far away from them as I really need to carve out my own life for myself and to become an adult again....emotionally, finacially and socially. I regressed back into childhood/ adolescence when I moved back home...NOT a good look for a 31 year old woman. When I was very unwell (this lasted for several years), I couldnt support myself financially and emotionally so I felt I needed to live with them.

Dear Terri,
You ARE a dear. Thanks for all your kind words and support.
BIG hug to you
 
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Dear I,
Leaving my family was incidental to moving interstate. I did't want to leave them as I miss them. Having said that, it is probably good for me to be so far away from them as I really need to carve out my own life for myself and to become an adult again....emotionally, finacially and socially. I regressed back into childhood/ adolescence when I moved back home...NOT a good look for a 31 year old woman. When I was very unwell (this lasted for several years), I couldnt support myself financially and emotionally so I felt I needed to live with them.

Dear Terri,
You ARE a dear. Thanks for all your kind words and support.
BIG hug to you
 
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Good for you Monika,
You did it girl and with what style lol

So happy to hear things are going well.

Love Shell
 
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Good for you Monika,
You did it girl and with what style lol

So happy to hear things are going well.

Love Shell
 
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Monika, I have the same reasons to go away, only I have to become an adult for the first time (shit happens), not again as it is the case with you.

Good to hear that you feel your job is something you can put up with for a longer period, that is important I think cause it gives routine and safety.

I am thinking of going to california in january or around that time, I did go to california last year but came back to finish another year in college. Was a bad idea because living with my family kind of freezes me because even if I try to be independent, well, my mom still cooks for me or tries to "help" me. Only results in dictation, you know.
Now that I have found out that I don't want to go to school anymore, nothing keeps me here. Well, I'll maybe come back next year for the job that I have done during the last two summers, this is a job I feel I can handle for a lifetime, although it is a 'summer' job (6 months).

I found out that being away from my family greatly improves my condition, so yeah I think it's a good thing to live on one's own.

Wishing you all the best in melbourne,
I
 
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Monika, I have the same reasons to go away, only I have to become an adult for the first time (shit happens), not again as it is the case with you.

Good to hear that you feel your job is something you can put up with for a longer period, that is important I think cause it gives routine and safety.

I am thinking of going to california in january or around that time, I did go to california last year but came back to finish another year in college. Was a bad idea because living with my family kind of freezes me because even if I try to be independent, well, my mom still cooks for me or tries to "help" me. Only results in dictation, you know.
Now that I have found out that I don't want to go to school anymore, nothing keeps me here. Well, I'll maybe come back next year for the job that I have done during the last two summers, this is a job I feel I can handle for a lifetime, although it is a 'summer' job (6 months).

I found out that being away from my family greatly improves my condition, so yeah I think it's a good thing to live on one's own.

Wishing you all the best in melbourne,
I
 

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Good on ya, Monika!

I knew this city would do right by you. You mentioned you were into theatre and performance stuff... did you check out any of the Fringe shows yet? I wholeheartedly endorse the incredible melk's booty pageant at tony star's kitten club. It would make such a proper introduction to the city. Congratulations, and I know that things will keep getting better for you. Take care!
 

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Good on ya, Monika!

I knew this city would do right by you. You mentioned you were into theatre and performance stuff... did you check out any of the Fringe shows yet? I wholeheartedly endorse the incredible melk's booty pageant at tony star's kitten club. It would make such a proper introduction to the city. Congratulations, and I know that things will keep getting better for you. Take care!
 
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