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Does anyone else find that meditation worsens their condition? I find after a few weeks of practising it that my thoughts seem even more uncomfortably out of control and I feel more detached from my emotions. I also experience memory problems, like my memories are no longer easily available to me. I essentially become the detached observer of the mind/body in a state of suffering. I hoped it would induce a state of calm as I learn to silence my thoughts but instead it seems to separate me further from myself. I hoped it would bring me closer to my emotions and engaged in clearer thinking but it seems to do the opposite. Perhaps I need to keep doing it daily over a very long period for this to happen. The types of meditation I have practised have been simply focussing on the breath and a body scan and various mindfulness techniques. I can reach an enjoyable peaceful state when doing the meditation itself, it just seems to have negative after effects the rest of the day. Or maybe I have accidentally fast tracked myself to enlightenment because of dp, haha (another topic to discuss perhaps in the spirituality section).