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i don't like lookin at mirrors i see a person who is suffering and can't get out. i see a lost trapped soul body and mind.
 

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I feel like the little girl in the movie poltergeist when I look into a mirror.
I have talked to myself in the mirror and I have stared at myself for log periods of time before because I am trying to figure out who I am, and I think maybe I will be able to see who I realy am by looking into the mirror. I have even lined up mirrors so that I could see like 50 mirror images of myself but I still cant realy see myself, I can only see the poltergeist man that looks like me.
I always get a negitive image from the poltergeist in the mirror.
The fact is that I am the poltergeist and I have killed the man I once was.
He don't exist and I am just a monster.
 
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It is bizarre; I can look in the mirror and understand that something is there. That something is me, and I recognize myself. What is so hard to percieve though, is that who I am seeing is a living, breathing human being.

It's hard to describe. The best way to put it: it's almost as if I am made out of plastic, not conceptually but physically. Like what I see is an inanimate object, a model of a person perhaps? Even a cartoon character.

Has anyone else experienced this?
 
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Sometimes it'll be normal...

But then other times, I'll be like "Whoa, is that really me?" And I'll just keep staring as if I was transfixed in myself...or whoever it is.
 

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i see a person who makes the same moves as my body does
then it's even more weird than else to realise that that body is mine
and i make it move????
 

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I know I am looking at me. It is my body and my face because I have seen it a thousand times before in mirrors and photos. But I cannot connect that image with my "self". I cannot grasp that my mind with all it's thoughts is inside that girl in the mirror. If I looked in the mirror and saw an image of what I looked like 3 years ago then I would probably feel that self recognition, but now it's too unreal. I've been through a lot in my life and the face just looks too clear and healthy to be mine.
 

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i am already getting used to it again
the moment when i changed again (got dp)
then it was hard to look into the mirror
was so strange again, but now i'm getting used to it
also with the rest of my life
starting to get used of living like a machine again...
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I see a kid who looks much older than he feels. When i look at my face i get the same feeling every time that i know the person i just cant put a name to his face. Then about 10 seconds after i walk away from the mirror i forget about half of what my face looks like.
 

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I know the person in the mirror is me. I know it must be. She's wearing the same clothes, and her hands look the same as mine and she follows my movement, but, like JossStick said, I can't seem to understand how I can be in there. When I look in the mirror, it's like my body I look down at isn't there anymore and it's just the other girl in the mirror. My conciousness becomes that of hers in a sense. I don't feel like I exist anymore, only that girl in the mirror does. I often talk to myself in the mirror (it feels more like she is talking though) or just sit there and stare at the person in it, just trying to make the connection. I lose myself in mirrors.
 

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When I had DP I could not recognise myself at all,I was fascinated by this person in the mirror,it sounds absolutely crazy/mental to say it now,but I could not believe that i was her,it was like noticing someone on the street 'i like her hair/eyes/etc" i saw myself objectively or at a distance and actually had better self esteem during that time because of it! because I thought she was pretty.
 

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I see a space of nothingness ....I see the big picture. We are all spending time on earth in outer space in this huge vastness incomprehensible. I just can not grasp my thoughts enough to explain the real "emptiness" and feeling of isloation I have. I just wish I was DUMB and not so bright to know the REAL WORLD!
 

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When I had DP I could not recognise myself at all,I was fascinated by this person in the mirror,it sounds absolutely crazy/mental to say it now,but I could not believe that i was her,it was like noticing someone on the street 'i like her hair/eyes/etc" i saw myself objectively or at a distance and actually had better self esteem during that time because of it! because I thought she was pretty.
Yes...ledganteast. This is exactly how I felt.
It didn't scare me at all...I just found my image fascinating. I felt the same looking at my wedding photos...I would think things like "gee, she looks pretty", and yet I would know it was me and I could remember my wedding day but couldn't relate at all to the photos...just couldn't feel it and didn't recognise myself.
 

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I am loving this people! I am so relieved to hear that someone else has mirror "issues". Ever since I was a little girl I have been fascinated with staring at myself in the mirror for long periods of time (okay, 10 minutes. But still, to be 11 and stare at yourself for 10 minutes, that's a little strange) in order to induce a strange out of mind experience.

It's kind of like saying your own name over and over until your own name sounds wierd and unfamiliar. Except the name thing is kind of funny, but the mirror thing is SCARY ASS STUFF. As I stare at the image that the mirror claims is me, the image begins to become more and more alien, I am profoundly aware that the image is supposed to be me, but my true self inside, begins to feel profoundly separate from the physical image, and I realize that I am not what I see, it is only the puppet I have been housed in. One time I spontaneously said out loud, "so that's who they put me in." The out of reality experience gets deeper and stronger and deeper and stronger until I feel I am on the cusp of some extraordinary revelation, (maybe, the mirror image will shatter and the real me will be revealed? Or I'll see the real world beyond the skin of the fake reality?).

The feeling is so overwhelming and terrible and alienating, I avoid looking too long, I've found that if I make a stupid face or stick out my tongue I can stop the process. Thank goodness I'm funny looking! Never look in the mirror in the dark, if you stare long enough you will see your own death.
 

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harikata said:
It is bizarre; I can look in the mirror and understand that something is there. That something is me, and I recognize myself. What is so hard to percieve though, is that who I am seeing is a living, breathing human being.

It's hard to describe. The best way to put it: it's almost as if I am made out of plastic, not conceptually but physically. Like what I see is an inanimate object, a model of a person perhaps? Even a cartoon character.

Has anyone else experienced this?
I do.

For me, I feel like it's a fake. It doesn't look the way that it looks on the inside. Even a voice recordingof myself doesn't sound like ... me. Very Very wierd stuff.
 
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