[gem]

Last night I snuggled up on my couch with a warm blanket lit the fireplace and played some music that is soothing to the soul. I needed to take a little time just for me to think of where my life is going with a dear friend beside me all the way, my dear friend being depersonalization. I called it dear friend because it is close to me, always there when I need it, never leaves my side, constantly remindes me of my existence even if it is a difficult one. I finally realized there is two ways I can handle having this friend of mine being so close to me and that is to either ignore it or accept that it is part of me. I was I have to admit feeling sorry for myelf a little bit, feeling lonely and scared of what the future may bring. After a long talk to myself I decided that if I am going not going to put myself down anymore because I am different I am going to accept who I am with an old friend hanging on for dear life and try to accomplish all the good things in life there is. I know there are days when we just feel like we cannot cope another minute in this but maybe if we take a moment for ourselves, give ourselves some quiet time to look at some positive things we can do to bring serenity then maybe we can look to the future with a little bit of a smile. It may sound silly to some that I took a moment to talk to my dp, oh and I am not of the wall, doctor says I am ok, well maybe I am ok a little bit, after dp is part of you if we try not to keep pushing it away maybe it will eventually just dissolve.

gem.

 

[genie]

Don't worry, i dont think you sound silly for talking to your DP - i thought it sounded like a good idea (maybe i will even try it myself!!)

The opinion I have taken on this is that no amount of fighting and pushing and shoving is going to make this thing go away. By fighting it in whatever way is just drawing more attention to it and feeding it more.

I think the best you can do is accept it and live with it until it fades. Thats what worked for me anyway.

I read an analogy in one of my books saying that if you have a scab on your leg and keep picking at it, its not going to heal. But if you just left it alone and let the body heal itself it would gradually disappear.

You can apply this to DP by say analysing, acknowledging, fighting it is all the same as picking at the scab. But if you just left it alone to get on with its own thing and run its own course (with as little fear or worry as you can manage) the body will heal itself on the inside.

 

[gem]

genie, I agree with you. I decided to stop fighting this and try and live with it the best way I can. Thank you for understanding.

gem.