Here I am again, still not recovered.I was wondering if someone else has the same symptoms cuz I cant find a topic that describes them or I am just going insane. I don have classic derealization and depersonalization( once had it), I don't feel out of body, neither is the world around me unreal,neither do I have existential big questions. My main symptom was 'stuck being alive', stuck being human, anc conscious all the time-like it is overwhelming, like some people describe it as 'hyperawareness of being alive, of existing', my mind can't comprehend what is that existence,it freaks me out. But it is not just that, for me, now the MOST uneblievable symptom is that the material world scares me. It is not unreal, it just doesn't make sense, I see a bottle and I can't comprehend what it is. Like 'seeing' is new to me, being human is new to me, material world makes NO SENSE! NONE! It freaks me out just existing and seeing and all the objects and air and space around me,nothign makes sense, like it is so fragmented in my mind and I feel very very stuck and claustrophobic in this consciousness. It is too deep, too weird. It is almost no longer DP I think,it's beyond that. I still have some dp symptoms like the time is strange, some flashbacks and unfamiliar sensations but they don't scare me because I know they are DP and so many people experience them, but I never found anyone who doesn't get the material world. It is not that unfamiliar dreamy feeling like in altered reality or dimension-NO, it's not like that,it's real but I just can't understand what i am seeing anymore, I am losing my mind.