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After a night of getting high with some friends, i woke up feeling....funny. i went to breakfast and thought i was still a little bit high. So when i got home i went to bed, hoping i would feel better when i got up.

Nope, that wasn?t the case at all. i was really scared, most scared ive been in my life. I didn?t know what was happening to me. I went to a movie with my brother and the whole thing was just surreal. i was constantly thinking, Come on wake up! and i would shake my head hoping to snap my self out of it. another day passed, and and as soon as i got up i was thinking, is it gone? waited a few seconds. and there it was. I started getting angry and even started crying, i hated the feeling so much. I even remember looking in the mirror and saying "THATS NOT ME, WHO IS THIS?"

and another theory was, i thought i was possessed. Possibly by some demon or something.

a week passed, things are starting to get more clear.

another week passed and i was recovered. Thank god.

I was wondering if anybody?s DP/DR was triggered by marijuana?

I take these medications:

accutane - 80 MG a day
celexa - 40MG a day

For informations sake, I also had a little case of OCD when i was a kid, and it still kinda hangs in there but not nearly as bad.

Thanks for listening to my story, if you have anything to say, please share.
 
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Do you have dr/dp now? and if so, when u smoke does it alter the DR/DP? make you feel better/worse?

ive been smoking weed for about 9 months now, and ive had 1 DR/DP experance and it lasted for about a week or 2. I could tell right away, there was somthing REALLy messed up with this weed. it was one of the few times where i didnt enjoy the high.

i was thinking, is it possible that everyone who has THC induced DR/DP has had laced weed.
 

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No I don't. I recovered slowly over about a year. Whatever you do, do not smoke it again. Ever. It will make things a thousand times worse.
 
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Yes, marijuana definitly triggered DP/DR for me and i had the same case as you... I had DP/DR for a 1 week and a half and woke up normal. Then i made another mistake and smoked a joint thinking i would be fine, and that was probably the biggest mistake of my life. I just remember smoking and then all of a sudden i ended up in my room with no short term memory. I felt like i was living in a cartoon and i would occasionally get these seconds of realization, which scared the shit out of me because i couldn't handle the shock. Here is some advice that will help you out alot. Dont smoke marijuana.
 

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yea pretty similiar to yours. smoked pot, got really scared. feeling didn't go away. then after a few weeks wasn't as bad, but still felt weird. then started thinking weird negative panicky thoughts. was really stressed out had a huge panick attack, had some more after that. wen't to the er 3 times in like 4 days. like around x-mas. i thought i was totally gone. crazy. lost from reality. i guess my family thought i was. and here i am now totally feeling nothing and feeling like a ghost.
 

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j_utah said:
Yes, marijuana definitly triggered DP/DR for me and i had the same case as you... I had DP/DR for a 1 week and a half and woke up normal. Then i made another mistake and smoked a joint thinking i would be fine, and that was probably the biggest mistake of my life. I just remember smoking and then all of a sudden i ended up in my room with no short term memory. I felt like i was living in a cartoon and i would occasionally get these seconds of realization, which scared the sh*t out of me because i couldn't handle the shock. Here is some advice that will help you out alot. Dont smoke marijuana.
John, glad to see your post again, and certainly recommending to stay away from Marijuana :)
 

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Sharpezor. An analogy is that folks with heart disease should not run marathons and diabetics should not drink booze. People who experience symptoms like yours while on pot probably should abstain. You mentioned some ocd. That is important. Folks with predispostions like us (anxious or a touch of ocd etc) who smoke weed or take other psychoactives like acid seem to be more prone to problems like this. Even those without predipositoons can wind up with problems. All I know is that after onset of dr/dp I still smoked weed and really it was not fun anymore. It was fun up to that point, but the wierd feelings were too much for me after onset. I really feel that every time i smoked after onset I solidified my dp/dr into chronicity...meaning long term. I introspected so heavily while stoned that it only served as fuel for this stuff to strengthen.

I think most the posts answering you mentioned an element of freaking out and hypervigalence after onset which in turn itself just opens the floodgates for more symptoms of dp/dr/panic/anxiety. A fear of fear of sorts.

Think of yourself as being allergic to any psychoactive substance. You will do yourself great favor by nipping this now. Some folks claim increased recovery if nipped early. I wish someone had told me this years ago.
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Well said bro! Well said! I wish I never did any drugs too man. It only takes one time.
 

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I have DP triggered by a joint 10 years ago. Wish I had "woken up". I'm going to go to the highschools with this drug awareness program and share my story. I'm also going to make a shirt to inform people what pot can do to you.
 

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I think what University girl is doing the right thing, i really wish i knew before I tried pot. I never never would have tried it if I would have known.

Turns out the most ironic part of marijuana and my dp/dr. Was zoloft cured my anxiety before I had dp/dr, then i smoked pot. I smoked pot again because I freaked out the first time I did it, I figured I was weak minded. I thought marijuana was something that I could conquer and get over now being anxiety free. Ha turned out to bite me in the ass now eh?
 

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And what would that do, destroy all hope in a kid who has this from accidentally smoking a Joint? i had DP/DR for a year and a half and got over it and would have earlier had i not heard stories like yours. I appreciate your desire for awareness, but dont make an extreme case like yours become a 'what if' to teens who are vulnerable to them. Just keep that in mind that young minds are pretty impressionable, and instilling fear in them is not something you should do, especially telling them that they could develop a rare disorder that has no cure. :)

sorry for the run-on sentences, im just sensitive to this.
well i wish they'd told me, im nearly 16 now and have it for 3 years, i'd prefer to of had someone tell me the effects, than finding out. :roll:
 

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poonanny. Your point is well taken. I would add though that I would rather have had hard information like UNIGirl speaks of before I "accidently" blew a joint and wound up like this. Yes it is rare, but it is real. And all. and I mean ALL, are unsuspecting before it happens. If I could dissuade ten people from this shit versus one who might get a bit freaked from the message than I would feel like mission accomplished. Weed is taken so lightly by youth. But if even ten percent of the population have a predispositon to anxiety disorders or other prerequitises (is that not the figure?) then figure that potentially hundreds of thousands of youth could wind up like us from taking a psychoacitive. The only question for me is how to make it believable to youth. I remember so well how hard I laughed in heath class (high school) when the then archaic message was given to me, In fact I think we smoked a joint after the class and laughed. I am not laughing any more. Those archaic dinasours were right. and I have spending my life eating crow. Sorry for the spelling.
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Actually alot of times they aren't right. People who have drug induced disorders are going to look at drugs as the cause of all their problems and demonize them to a point where it becomes unrealistic. Pot can be bad and can cause problems. It hurt me somewhat even if it wasn't the sole cause of my DP. However, for every one of us that gets a disorder there are many more who smoke, have a good time, and don't develop an inkling of a problem. This is not an epidemic, we are not the rule, we are the exception to it.

Education is good. We should make it publicly known that there are plenty of risks when experimenting with any psychoactive substance. You are putting your mental health at risk when you try pot or any other drug. However, we shouldn't make simply statements, or imply simple statements, such as "Pot will make you crazy" "LSD will make you jump off a roof and kill yourself" etc etc.
 
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Scattered said:
Actually alot of times they aren't right. People who have drug induced disorders are going to look at drugs as the cause of all their problems and demonize them to a point where it becomes unrealistic. Pot can be bad and can cause problems. It hurt me somewhat even if it wasn't the sole cause of my DP. However, for every one of us that gets a disorder there are many more who smoke, have a good time, and don't develop an inkling of a problem. This is not an epidemic, we are not the rule, we are the exception to it.

Education is good. We should make it publicly known that there are plenty of risks when experimenting with any psychoactive substance. You are putting your mental health at risk when you try pot or any other drug. However, we shouldn't make simply statements, or imply simple statements, such as "Pot will make you crazy" "LSD will make you jump off a roof and kill yourself" etc etc.
Exactly.

Also, no one I know smokes pot "accidently". You do drugs, you take responsibility. It is common knowledge that drugs "alter" consciousness, don't come crying afterwards or blame everything on disinformation or lack of information.

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I don't want to condemn anyone, especially not since I smoke pot myself and I've eaten psylocybin mushrooms on a few occasion. But it is my opinion that DP/DR gets triggered one way or another if there is predisposition.
 

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Scattered is right in saying that some people don't experience any negative effects from illegal drugs, although I wouldn't go as far as saying they are in a big majority. I think you'd be suprised at how many people go tits up after taking illegal drugs. But yes - it seems it's all got to do with your predisposition to neurotic complaints and, perhaps, how much you take. I think most people have a certain tolerance to drugs, or rather a threshold which they musn't step beyond, or there are certain drugs which just don't agree with them. I took weed and 'e' loads of times before I got DR/DP, without any problems. In my case, I think, I just over-did it. Took one took many pills, one too many puffs of skunk.

But weed isn't as safe as people think. I know I'll never touch that stinking s**t ever again, and that's coming from someone who wouldn't rule out ever taking any other illegal drug again, because I probably will. As long as I don't take huge amounts, it seems, I'm OK, except for weed. Neeeeeeeeeeever again.
 

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As I have said on this forum in the past, I am pro education about marijuana and it's potential ill-effects. I strongly believe people deserve to know what can happen to them when they experiment will street drugs and marijuana in particular. I, and many others I have spoken to about it, never knew that you do not have to smoke marijuana hundreds of times before damage is done. Hardly anyone knows that you can smoke marijuana once and become full blown psychotic. I know of a case of this. I do not want to lie to people and make it seem that marijauna is more dangerous than it actually is. For some, marijuana is the answer to their medical probs, not the cause. I know we need to be predisposed. And I know that many people have absolutely no negative effects from smoking pot. I only want people to know the truth. I want them to be aware. I deserved to know and so do they. I strongly feel it's something I need to advocate.
 
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