[Amethysteyes]

Hey anyone reading. Ive been dealing with cronic mild dp/dr that gets worse/acute every so often or so for about two months now. Ive had it before off and on for 3 years. This month, ive slowly been feeling more like my old self again, having major mood swings, espessially with depression and stuff. I feel just generally out of it and still have the wierd visual distortion when i look around (everythings dimmer and sometimes flatter) and i still get those intrusive thoughts like whats reality? Am i really here right now? Etc.. but they arent effecting me as much. Im taking multivitamin supplements and probiotics every day when i wake up and have a journal to write all my thoughts and feelings in but im also very sluggish and depressed and hardly ever leave my house except on weekends for my job or if i have something planned with friends but i find it hard to do anything outside my bedroom cause im worried the dp/dr will come back from anything remotely stressful. My biggest fear besides dying is having another full blown out of body experiance (which ive only experianced once or twice)

 

[Amethysteyes]

Also the depression is making it impossible for me to want to do anything even remotely interesting or anything i know id enjoy doing. My emotions are in tact compared to how they were when i was dissociating but i never want to do anything. Examples include drawing (i used to draw all the time, its my main passion since childhood) i cant get into any new shows or anything. I used to obsess over the fandoms i was in and now that passions gone. I still think about my romantic feelings i get for a person i know but im not that passionate about it anymore. I basically wake up, check forums im in, check text messages from friends, get depressed and lay in bed thinking about nothing...or everything and only get up when i have to.

 

[allison84]

Hi when I've started to recover in the past I got to a point were things seemed alot more normal yet something was still off or not right ,yet I couldn't really explain it and I couldn't really relate to people with severe dp but I still wasnt right .
I'm back in deep dr dp now but I look back now and can see that I was recovering
The funny thing is when I was nearly better I was more obsessed with that because I didn't feel 100% so it bothered me so much cause it wasnt full on DP so I was constantly questioning weather it was still DP or was I healed lol cant win weather it's bad dp or mild .

 

[allison84]

Keeping busy heaped when I was on my way out
Keep busy busy busy !