Lost of self/personality/humor anyone else?

You guys are ALL describing the numb DP and DR experience...Basically the feeling of being "off or numb" is classic DP/DR Dissociation...When you FEEL "off" as in not FEELING like your regular self you are experiencing DP

When you FEEL like your surroundings are strange its DR....

In both cases you are Dissociated from what you recognise as the norm...

It doesnt always have to be experienced with extreme anxiety or depression....Its still basically Dissociation...

I believe we are tuning out at a subconscious level and probably learned this from a very young age without realising it....We only became aware of it when it started to frighten us and cause distress...

Possibly due to our earlier upbringing we taught ourselves how to tune out and FEEL nothing during times of fear or anguish or terror...

Thats just my theory though....Nearly 30 years of this crap and I still havent figured out how to tune back in to my old self...Although having said that I have given up trying to get my old self back because it was becoming a futile search....I just accept the way I am now...Its easier to cope that way....Well it is for me anyway..

M1k3y ironically if you stop searching for your old personality it will come back by itself....

Truth is your personality hasnt disappeared at all....It just FEELS like it has...

You are still exactly the same person you were before DP to everyone else in the world....Its just you yourself that is perceiving yourself as different....I bet you are still behaving the same way you always did...You just FEEL "off"

The false perception (feeling) that your personailty has gone is the classic numb DP/DR sensation...Its as if nothing is funny or sad or painful or frightening (except the weird DP experience itself)

Nearly all DP/DR sufferers will describe feeling totally flat at some stage....

It goes away in time...

Kiwi89 said:

"I don't know what to say ever"

This is one of my BIGGEST problems. It's like it takes too much energy to talk too. Even if I'm trying to talk, I can't think of what to say. I can't even get together with my own best friends anymore because I'm SO afraid of the awkward silence. I used to say some really funny and creative things, I would always be making up crazy scenarios with people and laugh about it. Now there's just nothing, it's just easier to sit in my room by myself and let my brain be exhausted and zoned out :-/

I don't feel like I'm in a dream or floating outside of my body or anything. Im much like you except I'm kind of the opposite of hyper-aware.

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Yup thats the depressive side of DP...Over time dealing with this condition over and over day after day, night after night can leave us totally drained of all hope and motivation... In a way the condition itself can bring us into depression that wasnt previously there....Ya simply get sick of fighting a futile battle knowing that you simply arent gonna think or exercise or eat or sleep or work your way out of this god awful condition...

Its f*****g soul destroying and so persistent that we turn flat and lonely and isolated and lost in our own heads....Its not a life its an existance...

I know though that even though ya might not rid yourself completely of this condition it can be improved alot and ya can get back to a much more acceptable level of life....Unfortunately like the rest of us with DP I cant tell you how to feel better...I only know what worked for me (medicine)....Everybody is gonna get better and improve differently because we are all individual and react differently to medicines, therapy, exercise, diet etc etc

There is no Holy Grail cure "NOT YET"