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Does anyone experience a disconnectedness from words when in dp/dr - this is one of the things I get - a feeling of being mute, that there are no words available to me, if I speak my words seem false and I can't articulate anything...it relates I suppose to the feeling of inner and external blankness....
 

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I get this too. I sometimes dont sound 'like myself'. and if im writing something, i cant find the words i want, and the blankness.. it pi**es me off :(
 

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yeh all the time though this aspect of my illness has got slighly better, but always when I am talking to some one (this even counts online as well you may have noticed I am not the most talkative of members) there is an undercurrent of tension.
 

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it's an anxiety thing, no doubt. kind of like if you and some friends got in trouble with the cops and you were suddenly in the office with a cop two inches from your face getting all the story out of you...you would probably freeze up! or when you take a test, and stuff that you could discuss so eloquently the night before over several beers, is gone from your brain when you need it.

basically your anxiety level is so high that it's hard not to feel frozen etc..so this isn't like an "oh my god this is all part of the whole dp thing"...it is simply a symptom of anxiety you are going through. just on a grand scale. but because you're anxious you tend to forget about all the times you were mentally healthy and at a loss for words, for one reason or another.

i think that's what a lot of these symptoms are...we have them all the time anyway, even when healthy. looking back i've realized i've always had a sleeping problem, and i've always been tired, and i've had times of bad memory or not knowing the words or feeling a little detached or out of it or numb...all when I didn't have DP. it's just that when it gets so bad we think of it exclusively as part of teh dp instead of realizing that it's a totally normal human reaction related to anxiety.

edit: the reason why i'm trying to show that these are simply anxiety symptoms is that for a long time i have made myself worse by thinking of things in terms of black and white: "this IS the dp, that is NOT the dp", kind of like everything had to get better all at once for me to be a complete human again. kind of like i was on one side of reality and had to find the exact code to get back to the other. but seeing these things as anxiety symptoms gone awry helps me realize that "hey, i'm still here, i just have so much mental fatigue and anxiety going on that my mind is playing a few tricks."
 

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Personally this also extends into a 'lack of thought', where in many situations I will find myself being unable to create and structure thoughts, or even partake in some sort of internal dialog during times where focus and attention is required.

I've read that momentarily day dreaming or redirection of of attention may be the mind's method of bringing relief during stressful situations. I however experience this for the majority of the day. This can leave me feeling unable to participate in many activities, consequently affecting my self esteem. In the worst cases the chain of events has inevitably lead me to doubt my ability to direct my own future.

The possible connection to anxiety is an interesting one. I suffer from a low level of generalized anxiety disorder with repetitive OCD type thoughts (directed at trying to 'rationalize myself out of the symptoms' as Im sure everyone with DP does) and I have noticed that the loss of words / thoughts have been at the worst when the anxiety was at its highest.
 

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THANK YOU everyone for your replies. It helps a lot knowing that others have this disconnection from words - I assumed that it was just me. In fact I felt quite a bit better for a couple of hours after I read all your posts. I think I have mentioned it on the site before and got no response, but it is one of the aspects of my dp/dr/whateveritbloodywellis state that I really loathe, because I end up barely speaking at all. Have sunk again into thoughtloops, detachment and emptiness, but just have to struggle on.....Thanks again Sarah x
 

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THANK YOU everyone for your replies. It helps a lot knowing that others have this disconnection from words - I assumed that it was just me. In fact I felt quite a bit better for a couple of hours after I read all your posts. I think I have mentioned it on the site before and got no response, but it is one of the aspects of my dp/dr/whateveritbloodywellis state that I really loathe, because I end up barely speaking at all. Have sunk again into thoughtloops, detachment and emptiness, but just have to struggle on.....Thanks again Sarah x
 
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