[xoxlivvypiexox]

Hi everyone. I’m guessing I’m just making this post to try and get some reassurance or help in some way from anybody. My DPDR started with a really bad panic attack after enduring some stressful things in my life. It’s recently been getting worse I feel like, at the start I just felt panicky all the time but over time it feels like it’s been developing and I get so many intrusive and scary thoughts throughout the day everyday. The most recent scary feeling has been that I don’t know who I am anymore. I know my name however it just doesn’t feel like that’s me anymore and like that’s somebody else completely and I’m just kind of nobody now. I’ve also been getting seriously scary thoughts of reality not being real and as if it’s just going to crumble around me and almost disintegrate and I’ll just be left in darkness. It sounds strange to say but the feelings are so real and awful. Does anybody else experience this? I’ve been thinking of going on SSRIs maybe to see if it helps my anxiety or DPDR but wondered if anybody had any experience on them before.

 

[Aaron46589]

Welcome to the forum

Your symptoms do sound a whole lot like DPDR.

Depersonalisation is when you feel disconnected from your self.

Depersonalisation symptoms:
Feeling disconnected from your body
Feeling disconnected from your identity
The feeling of having no sense of self
No emotions or feeling emotionally numb
Feeling like your thoughts are not your own
Feeling like you don’t know who you are and that you don’t feel like a person.

Derealization is when you feel disconnected from the external world. It can make you feel like everything is made up and it’s not real or that everything feels like a dream.

The scary existential thoughts are just a by product of anxiety and are a load of bullshit and should be ignored.

You mentioned your DPDR came from stress and panic attacks if that’s the case then just focus on lowering your anxiety and stress levels and hopefully that should reduce your DPDR symptoms.

 

[xoxlivvypiexox]

Welcome to the forum

Your symptoms do sound a whole lot like DPDR.

Depersonalisation is when you feel disconnected from your self.

Depersonalisation symptoms:
Feeling disconnected from your body
Feeling disconnected from your identity
The feeling of having no sense of self
No emotions or feeling emotionally numb
Feeling like your thoughts are not your own
Feeling like you don’t know who you are and that you don’t feel like a person.

Derealization is when you feel disconnected from the external world. It can make you feel like everything is made up and it’s not real or that everything feels like a dream.

The scary existential thoughts are just a by product of anxiety and are a load of bullshit and should be ignored.

You mentioned your DPDR came from stress and panic attacks if that’s the case then just focus on lowering your anxiety and stress levels and hopefully that should reduce your DPDR symptoms.

Thank you for replying. This is reassuring at least that I’m not going crazy and losing my mind and dying and that I do have DPDR and other people experience it too and I’m not alone.