[livinginhell333]

do you guys find that having dp makes you lose interest in a lot of things because you feel you don' t have that connectedness and those emotions to connect to a song movie or what not. i do and its horrible. i can't connect to movies or songs anymore because i have no emotion and i don't feel the music inside. sometimes its just like noise. i've also lost interest in sports, although i like playing basketball kind of, but its not the same anymore, since i really don't feel the ball in my hands anymore, and i don't get the same feeling when i'm playing basketball. i guess i really don't have any interests anymore and it sux.

 

[Guest]

yes i feel this way, everything seems to be really dull and wierd, i dont enjoy things the way i used to. Everything just feels like the twilight zone. This is the lowest point in my life. Why wont it just go away? Why the fuck do i have to have this shit. Fuck this shit i wish i was never born

 

[shadowness]

i feel like nothing really matters anymore...

that life is pretty pointless and nothing is really worth doing...

i want to have an interest in things but cannot genuinely feel interested in anything anymore...

 

[Scattered]

yeah...pretty much

 

[livinginhell333]

i feel the same way shadow nothing interests me anymore and i yearn for that day that i can get some sort of interest back so that life is worth living, but i don't see that happening. i have been taking celexa for 2 weeks, hasn't really helped because i'm still not interested in things, i basically sit and do nothing and play basketball and work out every now and then, but it doesn't help. i don't even really drive. i'm a wreckless driver anyways. i don't want to get into an accident. i think when i drive i just don't care anymore, but still kinda pay attention. its like i'm looking for an accident when i drive. i try to drive like that to get some sort of rush or excitement out of life, don't know if it really helps though.

 

[Guest]

Yes. I can't create either. I can't write and I can't paint. I don't see images anymore in the things around me. I can't get inspired. I can't put words together like I used to.

I know it sounds like a very stupid reason, but if it doesn't come back, I'm going to have to take the cyanide route. It will be overwhelming. That is simply my only raison d'?tre and none other could replace it. You might as well just cut my hands off if I can't write with them; they have no other purpose.

 

[livinginhell333]

yea i have lost my creativeness too. whats the cyanide route?

 

[Guest]

The "cyanide route" is a euphuism for Suicide.

 

[Guest]

The "cyanide route" is a euphuism for suic***.

hmm i like that, any ideas on how your gonna go out ? i need to know the easiest ways

 

[livinginhell333]

don't kill yourself thats not the answer, although sometimes i think that is the answer, i can't do that to my mom. she had cancer twice and beat it, her mom and dad both died of cancer and i don't think she wants to lose a son also, but it does seem like the only way out sometimes. i'm not going to lie.

 

[livinginhell333]

i really just feel like all my dreams are shattered because i don't really have interest in things. hopefully one day i will wake up from this nightmare and life will be good again. i wish the same for all of you, and i do hope they find a cure for this one day. it would be cool if they studied this more and came up with a medicine to cure it, maybe one day. this is as bad as a physical illness, because it takes your life away and limits you in doing things.

 

[Guest]

don't kill yourself thats not the answer, although sometimes i think that is the answer, i can't do that to my mom. she had cancer twice and beat it, her mom and dad both died of cancer and i don't think she wants to lose a son also, but it does seem like the only way out sometimes. i'm not going to lie.

That's why I won't do it; for my parents. I don't want to hurt them. Sometimes I think about what I'll do after they are gone, but perhaps I'll have a family of my own by then to tend to. I don't see a future for myself though. I guess no one really does.

 

[Guest]

We need to do something, theyre has to be more research done for this damn disorder. I feel like we are so alone in fighting this thing.

 

[livinginhell333]

i'm losing interest in girls too, i mean i still like them, but not like i used to. it sucks. before i used to get an erection looking a hot girl, i can't do that now, thats one of the other reasons i feel dead inside. i mean if my mom can't beat cancer twice and she almost died from it then i can beat this beast, even though it seems hopeless right now. i am only 20 and it has to get better, it can't get worse unless i make it worse i guess.

 

[Clare_Blackman]

I feel like im at home at this website and ive only just joined.

I know exactly how everyone feels, nothing comes natural, wanting to do something doesnt come natural you HAVE to do it. Its horrible, i belive that that can be the depression side of dp/dr ....if im happy I find i can do more things.

 

[Brainsilence02]

Oh yes, I am around the same scheme. It's tempting sharing with you my thoughts, but I have read twice about suic.. and besides I am feeling a good right now and don't want to spoil this

Lately, when I can't find an interest, I say to myself that it's right here but I don't see it.

I try to forget everything that is passing through my head (yes, even if we feel empty, we are actually thinking something) and not to press myself for anything. Then I try to see what is that I really want.

Sometimes I find something interesting to do.

Also: can you convince your self that there is hope? Hope to get cured in the next second, hope to find something interesting to do.

Can you think of something that you have to do in the next day? It must be something pleasant. Can you plan something for the next day or the rest of the day?

And it is little things that matter. Today, I went for a walk in the park and it felt prety good.

 

[maria]

I'm pretty confident most of us, you, won't have to endure this awfully long. And those who do seem to have found some nice coping mechanisms (don't mean glue and the like). I'm all for positive thinking if pessimism hasn't done the trick. But to say it to people who already know it, it's just so hard. I'm really not interested in anything.
The only thing I can think of doesn't come in question since right now I can't make real what runs in my head. So I just try to escape this illness with things which don't involve too much concentration or energy or anything above the IQ of a cucumber, everything's just so black I can't see through it. And not a thing feels like anything. It doesn't matter if I climb the Mount Everest or watch grass grow all day, it's all just a dream to me. If there was something that could make me feel good, I could breathe. But yeah, one day...

 

[livinginhell333]

i wouldn't be able to climb mount everest, i feel like i can't grab things. so i can't do that. everything really feels like a dream. i look forward to sleeping because my dreams feel more real than my life. i have like 5-10 different dreams each night and remember most of them even days after the dream. is it good for us dpers to dream a lot at night and remember them? and i am dped in all my dreams, but in my dreams i am happy. are you guys dped in your dreams as well?

 

[livinginhell333]

o and another thing is i feel like i'm looking through someone else's eyes. like there not my eyes, u guys get that too? and i hate love songs because i've never been in love and gets me thinking if i will ever be in love with this stupid dp.

 

[Monkeydust]

I can't really tell for sure if I'm DP'd in dreams or not - they've always seemed so "weird" to me that any change in percepual shift that's different to the "norm" seems understandable and even expectable.