[Guest]

Does anyone here ever feel afraid of loosing control? like doing something to stir something up, anything, just something to alter what we're feeling/thinking.

Sometimes i feel like admitting myself into a psych hospital because im afraid my DP will make me loose control, and hurt myself in some way. This terrifies me.

 

[Mollusk]

yeah. I have this feeling i need to do SOMETHING, but I'm not not sure what it is. Just don't do something crazy that will hurt you or someone else. That won't help a bit. Do domething crazily rational or constructive. I think i need to go on a crazy homework binge, crazily start opening up to people or start sorting out all the loose ends in my life.

 

[livinginhell333]

yea sometimes i use to punch myself or hit myself or bite myself a little to see if i feel it, but i don't, i don't do it anymore.

 

[MrMortgage]

Ya I still feel like that sometimes (losing control, or going to a hospital) It used to be a lot worse for me, but it better now.... I just hope those feelings dont come on as strong as they used to...it's really hard!

 

[fingertingle]

I actually feel very confined (or, controlled) and I've had urges to just go completely nuts in public -sort of a little theatrical display of how I'm feeling inside- but that's been going on forever, before I considered myself crazy.. and I've always maintained a little hint as to the possible consequences of open craziness. Over the years, I've become more and more sure that won't happen... except psychosis, which I still fear for myself. I'm not sure if that's what you are referring to.